I've been thinking a lot about home as the holidays have been upon us. Home is a lot of different places these days. I've also been thinking about people and how much I miss the ones I love. I know I've said this before. Along with these thoughts of missing people though I've also been missing teaching. I've come to realize that all these things I'm missing are things that have made my life very comfortable in the past. I miss the things that have made life easy. Not that I didn't needed to rely on the Lord during these seasons of being surrounded by loved ones and a job that I was enjoying, but I was comfortable. We were both comfortable. Life was easy, and we really didn't know how easy it was.
I was listening to a song the other day called "Moving Forward" by Ricardo Sanchez. As comfortable as I was, I am the opposite here. I am currently in a job that I'm really excited about, but it's not teaching. Teaching brought a lot of stability that I wasn't aware of (probably part of the reason I wanted to do and knew I was supposed to be doing it) until I got out of it. This song reminded me though that it's not about staying where I'm at or looking back but continuing to move forward. If I stay in the same place how will I continue to grow? If I don't let go how will I experience what new things He has for me/us here? I won't. It's a struggle as I definitely don't want to leave behind what He has done in the past and the people and relationships He's built, but I have to remember to keep moving forward and push ahead to what He has in store next. It's a journey and as much as I loved the last destination and all that it held, it's time to move forward.
Happy New Year friends. Move into 2010 with great expectations of all that He's going to do in the coming months.
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
Blessed
So blessed. Here's the bullet list.
May you be blessed and enjoy all that the holidays bring.
- Danny got a job today that will entail a regular paycheck. He's actually taking over my "old" job. We're excited about the chance to have multiple paychecks on a regular basis again. He'll also still be able to do work on the side.
- Danny's been working on a government project that involves After Effects. Think special effects that make things look pretty. We're so thankful for Joff for bringing this opportunity along.
- I have a new job working with kids with autism. It's challenging; enough that I'm literally learning every single day on the job. It's super hard and trying emotionally. Therefore I'm learning to rely more and more on the One that keeps my emotions straight. The amazing part is that I love what I do and can't wait to go full time. I know it's going to be stressful and difficult, but these kids are great.
- We have a church we really enjoy where we're finding and building relationships that we really enjoy. We're blessed to be in a Bible teaching church.
- We have been paying bills in LA for the last 5 months almost. We've lived here almost 6 months. I'm pretty amazed by this on a regular basis. I truly have no idea how it works. When I look at our money through my eyes it doesn't work. When I trust the Father, it always does. He's amazing.
- Family and friends - even though they're spread across the country. We both had a hard Sunday in church, singing carols and missing family like nothing else. This is the first Christmas EVER that either of us has been away from family completely. It feels so much different this year knowing we're not going to be seeing the people we love so much. It doesn't feel like Christmas. We're working on just relaxing and enjoying the little time off. So many changes this year.
May you be blessed and enjoy all that the holidays bring.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Lessons
I feel like I'm finally beginning to learn some of Satan's tactics that he uses here specifically. He steals joy, he steals time and makes relationships really hard to keep, and he lies and steals truth. These are biblical, mind you, but I don't feel like I've ever seen these tactics used so blatantly before. The people that I come in contact with on a daily basis; I can see them in their lives. I can see them in my own life. I see the effects of them all around me. I think I've talked about LA being a world in and of itself before. This just goes along with that. The fall of man is evident everywhere. I grew up in a nice little conservative town where it was taken for granted that everyone was in church, or at least knew about going to church. Even when we got to FL it was a similar situation. That's just not the case here.
With these tactics of the enemy I'm working on learning how to fight. I've had a really emotional week. I was waiting to hear back from an interview that I really wanted and I was putting my trust and hope in that instead of in my Creator. Not a good choice. I'm blessed to have a husband who loves me despite my flaws, and celebrates good news no matter what. I got the new job but it's part time hours at first until there are enough clients. I'm working for Autism Behavior Interventions. I'll be working one-on-one with kids with autism to help them learn new behaviors. The training is scattered across the work day so this coming week I'll be at Massage Envy, ABI, and then tutoring as much as possible. It looks really crazy on my calendar and so my motto has become to take it one day at a time. I can't do more than that and I'm not asked to. I'm excited about this new job and all that it brings with it but it's going to be tricky scheduling until it's full-time and until I finish my tutoring hours with 4 of my 6 students. But I'm choosing today not to worry and to trust in my Creator. He's in control and I'm not. He is my security.
Another tactic I've noticed is that the enemy likes to isolate people here. We're all trying to make it and there is no job security. We're all trying to catch up on debt, pay off debt, keep up with all the bills, and then have some extra cash to play with. That means we're all busy working. Working and being away from people keeps you from sharing, keeps you from being vulnerable and living in community. We can't live without people. I know I personally need a community to be involved in where I'm learning from others and have the opportunity to give as well. This is hard when everyone is involved in lots of things and has no time. So I'm relearning what it means to be intentional about relationships. It's hard but I know it's worth it, and it's necessary in my life.
Finally Pastor Tim talked about suffering in church today. It was really great to be reminded of the fact that no matter what suffering might feel like to me today, it's all worth it when compared to the glory that comes in the end. We suffer with Christ. It's part of our conversion. We were never promised a life of wonderful happiness. We are promised to be cared for and to have joy. Joy is different than happiness. It's more and more about choices and suffering comes along with that. Rejoice in all things. All things.
I want to catch up with all of you, friends and family. Time is not available right now, especially with the difference for those of you out of state. I have been missing home a lot lately and that entails all of the places I've lived and those who have been a part of those seasons. But I'm learning and know we're where we're supposed to be. Joy comes in the morning:) Love to you all. Be blessed during the holiday season that is upon us and choose joy!
With these tactics of the enemy I'm working on learning how to fight. I've had a really emotional week. I was waiting to hear back from an interview that I really wanted and I was putting my trust and hope in that instead of in my Creator. Not a good choice. I'm blessed to have a husband who loves me despite my flaws, and celebrates good news no matter what. I got the new job but it's part time hours at first until there are enough clients. I'm working for Autism Behavior Interventions. I'll be working one-on-one with kids with autism to help them learn new behaviors. The training is scattered across the work day so this coming week I'll be at Massage Envy, ABI, and then tutoring as much as possible. It looks really crazy on my calendar and so my motto has become to take it one day at a time. I can't do more than that and I'm not asked to. I'm excited about this new job and all that it brings with it but it's going to be tricky scheduling until it's full-time and until I finish my tutoring hours with 4 of my 6 students. But I'm choosing today not to worry and to trust in my Creator. He's in control and I'm not. He is my security.
Another tactic I've noticed is that the enemy likes to isolate people here. We're all trying to make it and there is no job security. We're all trying to catch up on debt, pay off debt, keep up with all the bills, and then have some extra cash to play with. That means we're all busy working. Working and being away from people keeps you from sharing, keeps you from being vulnerable and living in community. We can't live without people. I know I personally need a community to be involved in where I'm learning from others and have the opportunity to give as well. This is hard when everyone is involved in lots of things and has no time. So I'm relearning what it means to be intentional about relationships. It's hard but I know it's worth it, and it's necessary in my life.
Finally Pastor Tim talked about suffering in church today. It was really great to be reminded of the fact that no matter what suffering might feel like to me today, it's all worth it when compared to the glory that comes in the end. We suffer with Christ. It's part of our conversion. We were never promised a life of wonderful happiness. We are promised to be cared for and to have joy. Joy is different than happiness. It's more and more about choices and suffering comes along with that. Rejoice in all things. All things.
I want to catch up with all of you, friends and family. Time is not available right now, especially with the difference for those of you out of state. I have been missing home a lot lately and that entails all of the places I've lived and those who have been a part of those seasons. But I'm learning and know we're where we're supposed to be. Joy comes in the morning:) Love to you all. Be blessed during the holiday season that is upon us and choose joy!
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Jesus
Church has been really great the last 2 weeks, leaving me feeling like I need to blog and write it all down. Then I get home and it's just not there. So here goes nothing.
This week he jumped into Romans 8:12-13. We'll be here 2 weeks in a row. I truly enjoy how Pastor Tim can divulge 2 verses and pull them apart to the point where it takes 2 weeks to get through. These 2 verses talk about killing sin. That was today's title. He was completely passionate about the fact that where our country is with evil and violence is in direct relation to the fact that the majority of us do NOT kill sin in our lives. We let it hang out and reason with us about staying right where it's at. Sin should not be at home in our lives. He likened sin to cancer. Do we have mercy on cancer? Not one bit. Sin should be seen the exact same way; show no mercy and get it out. Unfortunately with cancer there is no cure. With sin, we have Jesus. We have the Holy Spirit. We have all the tools we need in order to be successful in getting sin out of our lives. And yet we reason with sin, and we reason with Jesus. Can't I let you be in control of everything except for this one little bit of sin that I really like having around and holding onto? That's not how it works. Kick it out and don't let it return.
More and more I'm learning this is not an easy process, for anyone. We all have our sins that we're dealing with. No one is perfect. I know I have tendencies to get it rid of sin in certain ways and those aren't always correct either. I need Jesus. Straight-up. Nothing else is going to cure this cancer I have. And it doesn't feel good; just like chemo and radiation don't feel good. But when it works, you do whatever it takes to get healthy right? Really good word. Great reminder of truth.
I wrote last time about LA not being home. That's a continual process for me. Sometimes I feel like it's getting better and then something happens that makes me miss everything and everyone else in my life. I think part of it is the sheer process of transition and finding new friends. We have great people in our small group and at church and others we've met through work, don't get me wrong. In talking about getting sin out at church today Tim also talked about the need to have people in our lives to help with this process. I know I have spoken some harsh truths to close friends in the recent months and I'm thankful that they've accepted it for what it was and took it in the love I was hoping to give. That's part of being friends that I love. And maybe that's something I haven't completely found here yet. Partly I don't know that I've opened up completely to people yet and really let them speak into my life like that, and partly I'm not sure if I've found those people here.... yet. I anticipate they're all around me. I have also been amazed at the busy-ness of people's lives here. We're all trying to make, working towards something and spending all our time doing it. There's very little down-time and it's super hard to actually spend quality time with people. I met a friend at work a couple months ago and we've gotten together for dinner once. We haven't been able to since b/c our schedules clash so much. I miss the regularity of my teaching job. There was so much in my life that was comfortable simply b/c I was teaching. That's probably part of all this change in my life and realizing the differences of being here.
All this to say - kill sin, and love people. I love people and I love giving. I am also relearning some boundaries in my giving though b/c I can easily give too much and be completely spent on one person. That's not healthy. So much learning. Not much time to spend learning it. And working on living it. Working on just being and enjoying life for all it is here. So many many amazing people here.
PS though. I miss and love every single person in my life that I'm not seeing and talking to on a regular basis. That means those of you in IN, in FL, around the world, and spread across this beautiful country. With the sermon today I was just reminded of the goodness and joy of friends who have spoken into my life about things that need to change, with love. Thank you for loving me enough to want what's best, even when it's hard to say.
This week he jumped into Romans 8:12-13. We'll be here 2 weeks in a row. I truly enjoy how Pastor Tim can divulge 2 verses and pull them apart to the point where it takes 2 weeks to get through. These 2 verses talk about killing sin. That was today's title. He was completely passionate about the fact that where our country is with evil and violence is in direct relation to the fact that the majority of us do NOT kill sin in our lives. We let it hang out and reason with us about staying right where it's at. Sin should not be at home in our lives. He likened sin to cancer. Do we have mercy on cancer? Not one bit. Sin should be seen the exact same way; show no mercy and get it out. Unfortunately with cancer there is no cure. With sin, we have Jesus. We have the Holy Spirit. We have all the tools we need in order to be successful in getting sin out of our lives. And yet we reason with sin, and we reason with Jesus. Can't I let you be in control of everything except for this one little bit of sin that I really like having around and holding onto? That's not how it works. Kick it out and don't let it return.
More and more I'm learning this is not an easy process, for anyone. We all have our sins that we're dealing with. No one is perfect. I know I have tendencies to get it rid of sin in certain ways and those aren't always correct either. I need Jesus. Straight-up. Nothing else is going to cure this cancer I have. And it doesn't feel good; just like chemo and radiation don't feel good. But when it works, you do whatever it takes to get healthy right? Really good word. Great reminder of truth.
I wrote last time about LA not being home. That's a continual process for me. Sometimes I feel like it's getting better and then something happens that makes me miss everything and everyone else in my life. I think part of it is the sheer process of transition and finding new friends. We have great people in our small group and at church and others we've met through work, don't get me wrong. In talking about getting sin out at church today Tim also talked about the need to have people in our lives to help with this process. I know I have spoken some harsh truths to close friends in the recent months and I'm thankful that they've accepted it for what it was and took it in the love I was hoping to give. That's part of being friends that I love. And maybe that's something I haven't completely found here yet. Partly I don't know that I've opened up completely to people yet and really let them speak into my life like that, and partly I'm not sure if I've found those people here.... yet. I anticipate they're all around me. I have also been amazed at the busy-ness of people's lives here. We're all trying to make, working towards something and spending all our time doing it. There's very little down-time and it's super hard to actually spend quality time with people. I met a friend at work a couple months ago and we've gotten together for dinner once. We haven't been able to since b/c our schedules clash so much. I miss the regularity of my teaching job. There was so much in my life that was comfortable simply b/c I was teaching. That's probably part of all this change in my life and realizing the differences of being here.
All this to say - kill sin, and love people. I love people and I love giving. I am also relearning some boundaries in my giving though b/c I can easily give too much and be completely spent on one person. That's not healthy. So much learning. Not much time to spend learning it. And working on living it. Working on just being and enjoying life for all it is here. So many many amazing people here.
PS though. I miss and love every single person in my life that I'm not seeing and talking to on a regular basis. That means those of you in IN, in FL, around the world, and spread across this beautiful country. With the sermon today I was just reminded of the goodness and joy of friends who have spoken into my life about things that need to change, with love. Thank you for loving me enough to want what's best, even when it's hard to say.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
New revelation
Since I last posted my husband has come home, we have become official Californians by getting licenses and license plates, and we celebrated my birthday. I'm amazed that October is almost over already. I'm listening to Christmas music as I type, working on getting in the spirit. It will be very different without family this year but I'm hoping we'll make some great memories despite the fact.
Last time I wrote I mentioned I was praying about teaching. As I was sitting tutoring tonight, God spoke straight to my heart. I was just telling Danny last night that I wasn't comfortable here, in a good way. It makes me uncomfortable to be because it's out of my comfort zone. It makes me not want to stay here forever, but I'm ok with staying as long as God needs us here for. I truly living here; there are just things I miss about other places of the country, and especially missing people in other places of the country. So we were discussing this last night and just trying to figure out where to go from here and what it all means. We didn't get very far. And I was ok being discontented. This world is not my home.
So I'm tutoring today. God speaks that my teaching degree isn't so much about being in a classroom with students as it is about being versatile. Our life is unstable and that's ok. I have a degree that can be used in many ways. I am to use my degree to teach in whatever setting is available and necessary for the given time. I am a teacher. That's a huge part of who God has made me to be. What I need to do is learn to use this gift in whatever capacity He opens up for me. It's not just about being in a classroom, as much as I enjoy that and am comfortable there, but about being willing. The funny part is Danny has been trying to tell me this for years, since we first started dating really, but it was never something I wanted to hear. Now, being where we are and just feeling uncomfortable, I was ready to hear it. So will I teach in a classroom again? I truly don't know and I'm ok with that. I'm continually learning to be done with whatever plans I thought about and trusting that God will always guide and direct my path to where He needs me in the timing He needs that to happen. My God is amazing!
Last time I wrote I mentioned I was praying about teaching. As I was sitting tutoring tonight, God spoke straight to my heart. I was just telling Danny last night that I wasn't comfortable here, in a good way. It makes me uncomfortable to be because it's out of my comfort zone. It makes me not want to stay here forever, but I'm ok with staying as long as God needs us here for. I truly living here; there are just things I miss about other places of the country, and especially missing people in other places of the country. So we were discussing this last night and just trying to figure out where to go from here and what it all means. We didn't get very far. And I was ok being discontented. This world is not my home.
So I'm tutoring today. God speaks that my teaching degree isn't so much about being in a classroom with students as it is about being versatile. Our life is unstable and that's ok. I have a degree that can be used in many ways. I am to use my degree to teach in whatever setting is available and necessary for the given time. I am a teacher. That's a huge part of who God has made me to be. What I need to do is learn to use this gift in whatever capacity He opens up for me. It's not just about being in a classroom, as much as I enjoy that and am comfortable there, but about being willing. The funny part is Danny has been trying to tell me this for years, since we first started dating really, but it was never something I wanted to hear. Now, being where we are and just feeling uncomfortable, I was ready to hear it. So will I teach in a classroom again? I truly don't know and I'm ok with that. I'm continually learning to be done with whatever plans I thought about and trusting that God will always guide and direct my path to where He needs me in the timing He needs that to happen. My God is amazing!
Thursday, September 24, 2009
keeping up
Well I'm definitely not doing a good job of that on here but that's life right now.
I'm currently working 7 days a week. I hope I'm not repeating myself here. I work as a receptionist at Massage Envy 5 days a week. One great perk about this job is getting a free massage once a month. We have over 30 therapists so I need to get to know each of them and what they're like as a therapist so I can recommend them to clients who come in. It's a stressful job for numerous reasons but not horrible.
Beyond that I am tutoring 5 kids. 4 students are through a company that is getting grant money for helping out students because of the No Child Left Behind act. These 4 are all in elementary school. They get 34 hours before the end of April but I'm learning quickly that I don't really like working for the government; there's a lot of paperwork that has to be filled out exactly how they say. My 5th student is in 8th grade at private school and, really, he's my favorite. I think it's because there's no restrictions with him, his mom is great, and I really like him too. With all those, 7 days a week is my norm right now.
With working that much I'm learning to take things as they come. I think I used to know how to do this but kinda forgot when we were in FL and life was easy and comfortable. I'm learning to enjoy each day for what it holds and not let little things ruffle my feathers. This is not where I want to be in 5 years, let alone the end of this year, but it's where I am today and so I'm working on giving my best with each job I go to. I'm also learning about the instability of living here. No matter what industry you're in, you're really not promised anything. Even in education, I could get a job this year but next not have one because I would be at the bottom of the totem pole. This is different than anything I've experienced so far and makes me rethink life and what God's asking of me. I know Danny's industry is unstable. Even if you're good at what you do and get called back time and again, there are still going to be periods where you don't work and have to look like everyone else. You are not promised anything out here.
With all this instability I'm praying about teaching. I know it's what I'm called to do but I'm beginning to wonder if I'm supposed to be back in the classroom. I'm enjoying tutoring for the most part and feel like the relationship I have with each of my students is already much better than any of those I've had in the last 2 years teaching a classroom full. It feels like life is supposed to be different here and I'm just trying to figure out if that's true, or what that looks like, or I'm supposed to stay on the same track I was on before.
Going back to Danny, I haven't seen him in a week and a half. I'm thankful for this because he's working and making contacts. I don't love it though and I'm excited to have him home again. He could be back tonight but we're hoping he'll stay on until Oct. 3. He's a Production Assistant (PA - thanks Joffrey:) on a show where they do eliminations. That simply means that as the contestants get eliminated they also send home some of the PA's because they don't need them anymore. So far he's proven himself I guess. He's quickly learning the rules of working long hours and being away from home. When he left I just had to remind myself that this is only the beginning. I'm sure there will be times when he's away for longer periods, especially if he gets to work on a feature at some point. All new things to figure out as they come.
Overall we're doing well. We're paying bills which feels good. We're involved in church and really appreciating the relationships that are growing there. We're enjoying the area that we live in and the proximity of downtown. I'm thankful really. I'm glad we're here and thankful for the challenges we're learning through. More and more I realize how comfortable we were in the past 2.5 years. If was nice and there were times I thought we weren't comfortable, but being here makes me realize how much we had. I'm glad to be learning things again though and walking through life with a firm grasp on the one stability I know, the Father. I'm realizing more and more that without Him, none of this is possible, and He truly is the only stable thing.
I'm currently working 7 days a week. I hope I'm not repeating myself here. I work as a receptionist at Massage Envy 5 days a week. One great perk about this job is getting a free massage once a month. We have over 30 therapists so I need to get to know each of them and what they're like as a therapist so I can recommend them to clients who come in. It's a stressful job for numerous reasons but not horrible.
Beyond that I am tutoring 5 kids. 4 students are through a company that is getting grant money for helping out students because of the No Child Left Behind act. These 4 are all in elementary school. They get 34 hours before the end of April but I'm learning quickly that I don't really like working for the government; there's a lot of paperwork that has to be filled out exactly how they say. My 5th student is in 8th grade at private school and, really, he's my favorite. I think it's because there's no restrictions with him, his mom is great, and I really like him too. With all those, 7 days a week is my norm right now.
With working that much I'm learning to take things as they come. I think I used to know how to do this but kinda forgot when we were in FL and life was easy and comfortable. I'm learning to enjoy each day for what it holds and not let little things ruffle my feathers. This is not where I want to be in 5 years, let alone the end of this year, but it's where I am today and so I'm working on giving my best with each job I go to. I'm also learning about the instability of living here. No matter what industry you're in, you're really not promised anything. Even in education, I could get a job this year but next not have one because I would be at the bottom of the totem pole. This is different than anything I've experienced so far and makes me rethink life and what God's asking of me. I know Danny's industry is unstable. Even if you're good at what you do and get called back time and again, there are still going to be periods where you don't work and have to look like everyone else. You are not promised anything out here.
With all this instability I'm praying about teaching. I know it's what I'm called to do but I'm beginning to wonder if I'm supposed to be back in the classroom. I'm enjoying tutoring for the most part and feel like the relationship I have with each of my students is already much better than any of those I've had in the last 2 years teaching a classroom full. It feels like life is supposed to be different here and I'm just trying to figure out if that's true, or what that looks like, or I'm supposed to stay on the same track I was on before.
Going back to Danny, I haven't seen him in a week and a half. I'm thankful for this because he's working and making contacts. I don't love it though and I'm excited to have him home again. He could be back tonight but we're hoping he'll stay on until Oct. 3. He's a Production Assistant (PA - thanks Joffrey:) on a show where they do eliminations. That simply means that as the contestants get eliminated they also send home some of the PA's because they don't need them anymore. So far he's proven himself I guess. He's quickly learning the rules of working long hours and being away from home. When he left I just had to remind myself that this is only the beginning. I'm sure there will be times when he's away for longer periods, especially if he gets to work on a feature at some point. All new things to figure out as they come.
Overall we're doing well. We're paying bills which feels good. We're involved in church and really appreciating the relationships that are growing there. We're enjoying the area that we live in and the proximity of downtown. I'm thankful really. I'm glad we're here and thankful for the challenges we're learning through. More and more I realize how comfortable we were in the past 2.5 years. If was nice and there were times I thought we weren't comfortable, but being here makes me realize how much we had. I'm glad to be learning things again though and walking through life with a firm grasp on the one stability I know, the Father. I'm realizing more and more that without Him, none of this is possible, and He truly is the only stable thing.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
checklist
random list running through my head tonight before going to sleep that i feel like keeping track of:
Rochelle is thankful for -
- roommate bonding
- new friends that make life interesting and worth being here for
- stressful and challenging jobs that provide opportunities for constant growth and attitude adjustments
- blessings
- time with Cooper, even when he does his business and I don't have a bag to clean up after him with
- old friends that mean that world to me
- family that loves and supports us from afar
- the ability to pray for family and know that they are taken care of
- the precious love of a God that cares about me. I was so stressed out at work today and went to the bathroom to just be alone for a minute. It was all I needed. I laid it on the line and He gave me the ability to breathe and regain strength. The rest of my shift went well and I ended up selling a few memberships. It felt really good and was such a good reminder to me about my focus and my attitude.
- conversations that challenge me and continually ask me to think about life from someone else's perspective
- church and is excited about getting back there on Sunday to worship with the family. so glad we found a place so quickly and one that we truly enjoy. i've definitely missed the last 2 weeks!
- the ability to sleep in just a little bit tomorrow.
Life is good. I was going to put some other things but the reality is that life moves on from where I am today. It's a constant process and I'm working on enjoying the season and being thankful that we're where we're supposed to be for right now. There's so much learning to be done in so many areas. Growth is good. It's not rarely easy but so necessary. I miss many things about the way life was in the past few years but I'm learning to be thankful for the season I'm in and enjoy the journey and each step I get to take.
Rochelle is thankful for -
- roommate bonding
- new friends that make life interesting and worth being here for
- stressful and challenging jobs that provide opportunities for constant growth and attitude adjustments
- blessings
- time with Cooper, even when he does his business and I don't have a bag to clean up after him with
- old friends that mean that world to me
- family that loves and supports us from afar
- the ability to pray for family and know that they are taken care of
- the precious love of a God that cares about me. I was so stressed out at work today and went to the bathroom to just be alone for a minute. It was all I needed. I laid it on the line and He gave me the ability to breathe and regain strength. The rest of my shift went well and I ended up selling a few memberships. It felt really good and was such a good reminder to me about my focus and my attitude.
- conversations that challenge me and continually ask me to think about life from someone else's perspective
- church and is excited about getting back there on Sunday to worship with the family. so glad we found a place so quickly and one that we truly enjoy. i've definitely missed the last 2 weeks!
- the ability to sleep in just a little bit tomorrow.
Life is good. I was going to put some other things but the reality is that life moves on from where I am today. It's a constant process and I'm working on enjoying the season and being thankful that we're where we're supposed to be for right now. There's so much learning to be done in so many areas. Growth is good. It's not rarely easy but so necessary. I miss many things about the way life was in the past few years but I'm learning to be thankful for the season I'm in and enjoy the journey and each step I get to take.
Friday, September 4, 2009
suffering
This is not something we want to talk about most of the time but I feel like it's a theme in our life right now, something we're slowly learning through.
2 Timothy 2:10 I am willing to endure anything if it will bring salvation and eternal glory in Christ Jesus to those God has chosen.
I found this verse this morning as I was doing some reading about suffering. This pretty much sums it up. There's soooo much more than I want to write about. So many things have changed in the last few weeks. They're for the good. There's a lot of learning going on right now. But time is not on my side. Just know that suffering is good for us. Don't run from it if it comes your way.
2 Timothy 2:10 I am willing to endure anything if it will bring salvation and eternal glory in Christ Jesus to those God has chosen.
I found this verse this morning as I was doing some reading about suffering. This pretty much sums it up. There's soooo much more than I want to write about. So many things have changed in the last few weeks. They're for the good. There's a lot of learning going on right now. But time is not on my side. Just know that suffering is good for us. Don't run from it if it comes your way.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
A job or two
Here's the details you've all been waiting for. Ha!
We'll start with last week. I went to orientation on Tuesday and Friday to be a tutor for Academic Advantage. I tutored in Florida at one point and it's a very similar program. I am self-contracted, make my own schedule, take as many kids as I feel I can, and get paid decent money. There's a lot of paperwork involved but it's cool. I met some interesting people through orientation which was nice as well. The only "problem" with this program is I only get paid once a month so the first paycheck from them won't come until mid-October. That's a long time to wait.
On Wednesday we were went to small group finally and were blessed with new friends and fresh ideas. A couple of the girls had ideas for me of jobs they knew about. Danny was also able to connect with the guys and get a new idea. He's actually going to be working on that tomorrow; getting his name into an agency that does "extra" work (being an extra on a film or tv set). The pay is decent and it's a decent way for him to actually get on set and hopefully be able to make some connections with the crew.
Thursday I had two interviews; one to tutor and one to babysit. I started tutoring this week, outside of the previous company, with a boy going into 8th grade. He's a cool kid but definitely becoming a teenager and getting a little lazy in his work. His mom is great as well though. I'm actually getting that check this Friday for 3 days of tutoring which is exciting. Money actually coming in! Once school starts, Sept. 9! I think I'll be tutoring him twice weekly and then working the schedule out with the other 4 students I have through the company. It's going to be interesting:)
Then Saturday I interviewed with my friend's boss. The company is Massage Envy and they're just about a mile and a half away which is really nice. Once the weather cools a bit I might just start walking to work. We'll see how it goes:) But she loved me and hired me on the spot. So that's the job I've been at since Monday. I'm a receptionist and so far I've answered a few phones and scheduled a few appointments. It's going to be challenging because they have a membership that they sell in order to make massage affordable to the "average Joe." So I'm going to have to work on being able to sell a product. I did this minimally at Kohl's with the Kohl's Card but this is much more intense. It's a good product and I would do it myself if we had the money. The GREAT part about this job is that I am required to get one massage a month, on the company. I need to know the "product", or therapists, and the only way to do that is by seeing them as a client myself. I'm a little excited about that part:)
Many of you probably were aware of the nanny position that I posted about last time. I really wanted to the job b/c it would have been one of the easiest jobs I had ever done before. The funny part is that when I didn't hear from them, and as each day passed, Danny and I both were given an understanding of why I wasn't supposed to have the job. So when I was finally contact 4 days later than I was told, it wasn't really a big deal. Danny and I both realized that 1) it would keep me from being involved in church b/c of the late hours and 2) it wasn't teaching. Getting involved with a family is not like any other job. You get really attached to a family. I think it's much more difficult to leave a family than to leave any other type of job. I know how difficult leaving CIL was this summer b/c they had become family. There were a lot of them though, whereas working with a family there are very few people involved which means the relationships build faster and can get deeper. So I was sad, but not as sad as I could have been.
So things are getting better. The pay is not amazing at Massage Envy but I do get commission once I start selling. September is going to be a rough month yet but I think once mid-October hits things are going to get better. Unless Danny finds work in September and then finances will get easier faster. That's the still the prayer as he daily applies for work.
There are so many other things we're learning right now that I badly need to write about and get out of my system, but this is already long enough. Stay tuned:) And thanks for ALL your prayers!
We'll start with last week. I went to orientation on Tuesday and Friday to be a tutor for Academic Advantage. I tutored in Florida at one point and it's a very similar program. I am self-contracted, make my own schedule, take as many kids as I feel I can, and get paid decent money. There's a lot of paperwork involved but it's cool. I met some interesting people through orientation which was nice as well. The only "problem" with this program is I only get paid once a month so the first paycheck from them won't come until mid-October. That's a long time to wait.
On Wednesday we were went to small group finally and were blessed with new friends and fresh ideas. A couple of the girls had ideas for me of jobs they knew about. Danny was also able to connect with the guys and get a new idea. He's actually going to be working on that tomorrow; getting his name into an agency that does "extra" work (being an extra on a film or tv set). The pay is decent and it's a decent way for him to actually get on set and hopefully be able to make some connections with the crew.
Thursday I had two interviews; one to tutor and one to babysit. I started tutoring this week, outside of the previous company, with a boy going into 8th grade. He's a cool kid but definitely becoming a teenager and getting a little lazy in his work. His mom is great as well though. I'm actually getting that check this Friday for 3 days of tutoring which is exciting. Money actually coming in! Once school starts, Sept. 9! I think I'll be tutoring him twice weekly and then working the schedule out with the other 4 students I have through the company. It's going to be interesting:)
Then Saturday I interviewed with my friend's boss. The company is Massage Envy and they're just about a mile and a half away which is really nice. Once the weather cools a bit I might just start walking to work. We'll see how it goes:) But she loved me and hired me on the spot. So that's the job I've been at since Monday. I'm a receptionist and so far I've answered a few phones and scheduled a few appointments. It's going to be challenging because they have a membership that they sell in order to make massage affordable to the "average Joe." So I'm going to have to work on being able to sell a product. I did this minimally at Kohl's with the Kohl's Card but this is much more intense. It's a good product and I would do it myself if we had the money. The GREAT part about this job is that I am required to get one massage a month, on the company. I need to know the "product", or therapists, and the only way to do that is by seeing them as a client myself. I'm a little excited about that part:)
Many of you probably were aware of the nanny position that I posted about last time. I really wanted to the job b/c it would have been one of the easiest jobs I had ever done before. The funny part is that when I didn't hear from them, and as each day passed, Danny and I both were given an understanding of why I wasn't supposed to have the job. So when I was finally contact 4 days later than I was told, it wasn't really a big deal. Danny and I both realized that 1) it would keep me from being involved in church b/c of the late hours and 2) it wasn't teaching. Getting involved with a family is not like any other job. You get really attached to a family. I think it's much more difficult to leave a family than to leave any other type of job. I know how difficult leaving CIL was this summer b/c they had become family. There were a lot of them though, whereas working with a family there are very few people involved which means the relationships build faster and can get deeper. So I was sad, but not as sad as I could have been.
So things are getting better. The pay is not amazing at Massage Envy but I do get commission once I start selling. September is going to be a rough month yet but I think once mid-October hits things are going to get better. Unless Danny finds work in September and then finances will get easier faster. That's the still the prayer as he daily applies for work.
There are so many other things we're learning right now that I badly need to write about and get out of my system, but this is already long enough. Stay tuned:) And thanks for ALL your prayers!
Thursday, August 13, 2009
The family
Last night was a late one but worth it. I was called back for a second interview from last week's nanny interview. The mom works a lot of hours as an attorney so 9:30pm was the time she had available to meet this week. It was also one of the 3 times available between 3 girls their meeting, and maybe the only time that I would be able to meet all 3 of them. So I went with it. I figured being first has it's advantages and I wanted to make sure I met them all. I'm so glad I made the trip.
They're a wonderful family; laid-back, easy-going, active but not so busy that it's crazy, athletic, involved, communicative, incredibly mannered, and genuine. There were so many things I found in common with them like board games, video games, movie making, dogs, and sports. I felt right at home. There are 2 more interviews today and then they leave for vaca on Saturday so I'll know by then. I'm really hopeful but trusting Him. I know that if I don't get it there's another plan that I haven't quite figured out yet. But ultimately, I'm at rest and peaceful in this time of waiting.
On another note, we returned to the same church on Sunday and had an even better experience than the first time. We chatted with someone we'd met the week before, worship was better, and the teaching really hit home. They're dealing with some things as a church right now with leadership and they're all about putting it out there because that's what the Word tells us to do. It's an awesome process in that they're following the Word strictly even though it's painful. It's not something you get to see a lot of, but seeing it modeled in front of you is pretty incredible. The pastor is going through Romans right now and was in the beginning of chapter six. It was beautiful. Because of the issue at hand he also touched on the process we're supposed to use when there's conflict. A reminder that I needed in my life. Another fun part of the church is that there's a random assortment of TM alumni. It's nice having "family" around.
For the most part, this church has been great in simply the people that we're meeting. The rest of it is great but the people are wonderful and welcoming and inviting. It's exciting to be in a place where we feel at home again and actually have the opportunity to fellowship again. For now, it's home. I'm not sure what would take us from it but we're excited for where we're at right now.
Because of the pastor's series I wanted to reread Romans and catch up with him. The first couple chapters are not for the light-hearted. It's intense about sin and what you're supposed to do with it. Chapter 3 really got me yesterday, almost to the point of tears. Here is the God-man who came to earth. I got the picture of him being our hero. I feel like we have this idea of what a hero is in America but this God-man, He's our true Hero. If someone saves your life how do you repay them? By asking them to do it again and again? By continually living a lifestyle in which they have to keep rescuing you? Does that make them an even greater hero in everyone else's eyes, or even yours? Generally I think that if someone has been rescued from death, they are thankful. They generally take an inventory of their life and maybe even make some changes for the better that they didn't see before. This is the way that I think we need to thank our Hero. And the exact same concept applies to our God. As I was reading I had that fresh thought, realization even, about the fact that I don't have to die this horrible death or go to hell. The fact that my sins have been covered and I'm clean. Does it mean I'm perfect? By no means; I will never claim it. But it also means that I'm going to work on those changes instead of living in a way that I continually need saving. We're born with a sinful nature but that doesn't mean we don't have a choice. All this was so fresh as I read. Who Christ is and what He did for us. I sit in awe and humility, knowing that I don't deserve anywhere close to what He has provided.
They're a wonderful family; laid-back, easy-going, active but not so busy that it's crazy, athletic, involved, communicative, incredibly mannered, and genuine. There were so many things I found in common with them like board games, video games, movie making, dogs, and sports. I felt right at home. There are 2 more interviews today and then they leave for vaca on Saturday so I'll know by then. I'm really hopeful but trusting Him. I know that if I don't get it there's another plan that I haven't quite figured out yet. But ultimately, I'm at rest and peaceful in this time of waiting.
On another note, we returned to the same church on Sunday and had an even better experience than the first time. We chatted with someone we'd met the week before, worship was better, and the teaching really hit home. They're dealing with some things as a church right now with leadership and they're all about putting it out there because that's what the Word tells us to do. It's an awesome process in that they're following the Word strictly even though it's painful. It's not something you get to see a lot of, but seeing it modeled in front of you is pretty incredible. The pastor is going through Romans right now and was in the beginning of chapter six. It was beautiful. Because of the issue at hand he also touched on the process we're supposed to use when there's conflict. A reminder that I needed in my life. Another fun part of the church is that there's a random assortment of TM alumni. It's nice having "family" around.
For the most part, this church has been great in simply the people that we're meeting. The rest of it is great but the people are wonderful and welcoming and inviting. It's exciting to be in a place where we feel at home again and actually have the opportunity to fellowship again. For now, it's home. I'm not sure what would take us from it but we're excited for where we're at right now.
Because of the pastor's series I wanted to reread Romans and catch up with him. The first couple chapters are not for the light-hearted. It's intense about sin and what you're supposed to do with it. Chapter 3 really got me yesterday, almost to the point of tears. Here is the God-man who came to earth. I got the picture of him being our hero. I feel like we have this idea of what a hero is in America but this God-man, He's our true Hero. If someone saves your life how do you repay them? By asking them to do it again and again? By continually living a lifestyle in which they have to keep rescuing you? Does that make them an even greater hero in everyone else's eyes, or even yours? Generally I think that if someone has been rescued from death, they are thankful. They generally take an inventory of their life and maybe even make some changes for the better that they didn't see before. This is the way that I think we need to thank our Hero. And the exact same concept applies to our God. As I was reading I had that fresh thought, realization even, about the fact that I don't have to die this horrible death or go to hell. The fact that my sins have been covered and I'm clean. Does it mean I'm perfect? By no means; I will never claim it. But it also means that I'm going to work on those changes instead of living in a way that I continually need saving. We're born with a sinful nature but that doesn't mean we don't have a choice. All this was so fresh as I read. Who Christ is and what He did for us. I sit in awe and humility, knowing that I don't deserve anywhere close to what He has provided.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Jobs are coming!
It's been a really fun week. Monday I went walking with Lib at the Rose Bowl. I'm a pretty big fan of this place and can't wait till she comes back and I can buy some new roller blades. It's a 3 mile circle basically and a lot of people walk it. There are some low hills (think IN:) to help push it but it's a really nice walk.
Tuesday morning we hiked 6 miles through Griffith Park. It was pretty amazing. The sky was fairly clear. It didn't seem like there was a lot of smog yet so we had a good view of the city. I've heard it looks even better right after a rain. I guess I'll have to wait till the winter or next June for that to happen. We've been here 5 weeks and haven't seen a drop of precipitation. Doesn't bother me one bit. But really... we live in the desert. I still love the coolness of the morning and evening and the low humidity.
After Griffith Danny and I headed out to Santa Monica to chill on the beach for a couple hours. It was nice to be just the two of us hanging out with no worries, just enjoying the sun. We only had to pay $1 for parking for 2 hours which is pretty good for the LA area. Parking here is crazy. We hung out at Sheri and Kristen's place without them for a while. Sad they weren't there but soooo glad they left it open for us. Thanks again ladies! And then off to LAX to pick up Joffrey.
Oh yeah, while we were at the beach I got a call from a tutoring company here who tutor specifically NCLB kids. That's No Child Left Behind students for those of you not in the education field:) They're struggling students and I got asked some questions. But the outcome is that I have 2 days of training in a couple of weeks and then I'll start tutoring 8-25 hours a week. I'm excited about this because it uses my teaching abilities but leaves my hours flexible to be able to add another job in where I can. Tutoring will happen anytime after 4pm and it's decent money. So yes, that is job number 1!
It's been a rough couple weeks, I'm not gonna lie. Trusting God when things seem to be going nowhere and I'm not getting contacted back by anybody really sucks. I've broken down a couple times and Praise God for my husband. He has been absolutely amazing. We realize things could still get worse in certain areas but we're realizing that as long as He's still at the head and He's the one still in control, it's fine. It'll work out. It may not be life as we think it should be, or hoped it would be, but it's His and that's what matters.
Libby left Wednesday and it was sad. I'm soooo glad she's coming back. She's been amazing to have around. She's so full of life and energy all the time:) It's encouraging to say the least.
Today I interviewed with AppleOne. They're an agency that does temporary work or direct-hire work. Basically they help you find work until you get something permament, unless that's not what you're looking for. I found out I type 74 words per minute and I'm in. They lady actually put my resume in for a permanent position just up the road. I would be a receptionist basically, but it's full-time work. I'm not planning on teaching this year. Nobody is hiring. I've thought about subbing but we'll have to see what works out with this agency.
And then there's tomorrow. I finally heard back from a family and have an interview tomorrow morning at 9am. Two teenage boys. I'm excited about it. I have no idea how everything's going to work out but again, it's so great to just be contacted about the potential for work. I'm hoping things work out tomorrow because the boys sound like a lot of fun, active in sports and their school and what-not.
Danny's working on his production company and getting that up and running. He and Joffrey worked on price-sheets today so they're heading in the right direction. Danny has applied to a few things but having only one car and with his back, he's felt fairly limited. We'll see what happens once we figure out what's going on with me. Like I said though, he's been amazing. Whenever I've fallen apart, he's always completely encouraging and has faith that we aren't going to end up on the streets. He pulls and pushes me through so that we can keep living again.
I need to update a newsletter, especially considering we got new phone numbers today! We're still with Verizon but we changed to California numbers.We've heard rumors that if you have an out-of-state number the locals don't like to call you as much. It throws them off apparently. So we need to let people know those. And we just need to let people know what's going on. I'm hoping people read this thing but I know most people probably don't. Pretty sure I talked about updating the newsletter a couple weeks ago; guess that hasn't happened yet. That will be my weekend project. But for now, I'm off. One more thing I need to blog about was going to church on Sunday and the birthday party we went to Sunday night because of that. It was great fun. And now I'm going to a free Madagascar showing with the same people! Good stuff:)
Tuesday morning we hiked 6 miles through Griffith Park. It was pretty amazing. The sky was fairly clear. It didn't seem like there was a lot of smog yet so we had a good view of the city. I've heard it looks even better right after a rain. I guess I'll have to wait till the winter or next June for that to happen. We've been here 5 weeks and haven't seen a drop of precipitation. Doesn't bother me one bit. But really... we live in the desert. I still love the coolness of the morning and evening and the low humidity.
After Griffith Danny and I headed out to Santa Monica to chill on the beach for a couple hours. It was nice to be just the two of us hanging out with no worries, just enjoying the sun. We only had to pay $1 for parking for 2 hours which is pretty good for the LA area. Parking here is crazy. We hung out at Sheri and Kristen's place without them for a while. Sad they weren't there but soooo glad they left it open for us. Thanks again ladies! And then off to LAX to pick up Joffrey.
Oh yeah, while we were at the beach I got a call from a tutoring company here who tutor specifically NCLB kids. That's No Child Left Behind students for those of you not in the education field:) They're struggling students and I got asked some questions. But the outcome is that I have 2 days of training in a couple of weeks and then I'll start tutoring 8-25 hours a week. I'm excited about this because it uses my teaching abilities but leaves my hours flexible to be able to add another job in where I can. Tutoring will happen anytime after 4pm and it's decent money. So yes, that is job number 1!
It's been a rough couple weeks, I'm not gonna lie. Trusting God when things seem to be going nowhere and I'm not getting contacted back by anybody really sucks. I've broken down a couple times and Praise God for my husband. He has been absolutely amazing. We realize things could still get worse in certain areas but we're realizing that as long as He's still at the head and He's the one still in control, it's fine. It'll work out. It may not be life as we think it should be, or hoped it would be, but it's His and that's what matters.
Libby left Wednesday and it was sad. I'm soooo glad she's coming back. She's been amazing to have around. She's so full of life and energy all the time:) It's encouraging to say the least.
Today I interviewed with AppleOne. They're an agency that does temporary work or direct-hire work. Basically they help you find work until you get something permament, unless that's not what you're looking for. I found out I type 74 words per minute and I'm in. They lady actually put my resume in for a permanent position just up the road. I would be a receptionist basically, but it's full-time work. I'm not planning on teaching this year. Nobody is hiring. I've thought about subbing but we'll have to see what works out with this agency.
And then there's tomorrow. I finally heard back from a family and have an interview tomorrow morning at 9am. Two teenage boys. I'm excited about it. I have no idea how everything's going to work out but again, it's so great to just be contacted about the potential for work. I'm hoping things work out tomorrow because the boys sound like a lot of fun, active in sports and their school and what-not.
Danny's working on his production company and getting that up and running. He and Joffrey worked on price-sheets today so they're heading in the right direction. Danny has applied to a few things but having only one car and with his back, he's felt fairly limited. We'll see what happens once we figure out what's going on with me. Like I said though, he's been amazing. Whenever I've fallen apart, he's always completely encouraging and has faith that we aren't going to end up on the streets. He pulls and pushes me through so that we can keep living again.
I need to update a newsletter, especially considering we got new phone numbers today! We're still with Verizon but we changed to California numbers.We've heard rumors that if you have an out-of-state number the locals don't like to call you as much. It throws them off apparently. So we need to let people know those. And we just need to let people know what's going on. I'm hoping people read this thing but I know most people probably don't. Pretty sure I talked about updating the newsletter a couple weeks ago; guess that hasn't happened yet. That will be my weekend project. But for now, I'm off. One more thing I need to blog about was going to church on Sunday and the birthday party we went to Sunday night because of that. It was great fun. And now I'm going to a free Madagascar showing with the same people! Good stuff:)
Monday, July 27, 2009
life outside the bubble
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These are just in case the last link didn't work. I'm learning I promise:)
We hung out with some friends that we met at Teen Mania, just about 9 years ago, last night. It was amazing. We talked of changes in our lives, how we're different and how life has changed. We shared stories of how we've gotten where we are. It's funny to me how so many people go to Teen Mania and change themselves completely for that year. I became introverted and kept to myself, missing out on some amazing people. Danny was the opposite. And it's very interesting to me knowing that I'm not the only one who did that. These girls were all love and as much as I was slightly nervous about the night, I came away in the same way I thought I would. Can't wait to do it again:)
The biggest thing I'm learning from last night is that life is not about being sheltered. I grew up in small-town Indiana. I don't regret growing up there. I'm not upset that my parents were conservative and kept me safe. I enjoyed where I was and didn't know any differently. The more I grow up though, the more I realize that it's good to know about life beyond yourself. You may not agree with everything that the world is doing or thinking, but it's good to know it. It's better to be able to bring it into a family discussion that's safe instead of hiding it and finding out later. Isn't it better to have a conversation about challenging views and beliefs around you where it's safe and you can talk about responses to it? That's really all I'm realizing. That and the fact that judgment sucks here on earth. I'm not perfect by any means and don't claim to be, but I had a great conversation with a friend this morning about judgment that stemmed from last night. We all judge people b/c we're all human. It's one of those immediate response things that just happens. But it's what you do with it next that makes all the difference. I'm not God, and neither are any of you. There is truth, yes, but who am I to judge people and end a relationship just because of differences. Love. Love is where it's at. There's more to it, ultimately, but that's the beginning. And that beginning can, and should, last quite a while. So like I said, I'm experiencing life outside of the box I grew up in. I liked my box, but I'm excited about how the walls of my box are expanding.
On the job front, we're both looking. I haven't heard from Kohl's or the mother. Kinda stinks but what're you gonna do?! Gotta keep pushing forward and believe that He's got it in His hands. He knows our finances. We're not doing great, I'm not gonna lie. But I believe that we're here b/c of Him and He knows our future. And fortunately I have a husband who believes the same thing and is very supportive. It's tough. Really tough. Day in and day out without work. But you keep moving forward. So there you go peeps. Lots on my mind these days and trying to keep up with it all.
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http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2021906&id=62401056&l=504c210505
These are just in case the last link didn't work. I'm learning I promise:)
We hung out with some friends that we met at Teen Mania, just about 9 years ago, last night. It was amazing. We talked of changes in our lives, how we're different and how life has changed. We shared stories of how we've gotten where we are. It's funny to me how so many people go to Teen Mania and change themselves completely for that year. I became introverted and kept to myself, missing out on some amazing people. Danny was the opposite. And it's very interesting to me knowing that I'm not the only one who did that. These girls were all love and as much as I was slightly nervous about the night, I came away in the same way I thought I would. Can't wait to do it again:)
The biggest thing I'm learning from last night is that life is not about being sheltered. I grew up in small-town Indiana. I don't regret growing up there. I'm not upset that my parents were conservative and kept me safe. I enjoyed where I was and didn't know any differently. The more I grow up though, the more I realize that it's good to know about life beyond yourself. You may not agree with everything that the world is doing or thinking, but it's good to know it. It's better to be able to bring it into a family discussion that's safe instead of hiding it and finding out later. Isn't it better to have a conversation about challenging views and beliefs around you where it's safe and you can talk about responses to it? That's really all I'm realizing. That and the fact that judgment sucks here on earth. I'm not perfect by any means and don't claim to be, but I had a great conversation with a friend this morning about judgment that stemmed from last night. We all judge people b/c we're all human. It's one of those immediate response things that just happens. But it's what you do with it next that makes all the difference. I'm not God, and neither are any of you. There is truth, yes, but who am I to judge people and end a relationship just because of differences. Love. Love is where it's at. There's more to it, ultimately, but that's the beginning. And that beginning can, and should, last quite a while. So like I said, I'm experiencing life outside of the box I grew up in. I liked my box, but I'm excited about how the walls of my box are expanding.
On the job front, we're both looking. I haven't heard from Kohl's or the mother. Kinda stinks but what're you gonna do?! Gotta keep pushing forward and believe that He's got it in His hands. He knows our finances. We're not doing great, I'm not gonna lie. But I believe that we're here b/c of Him and He knows our future. And fortunately I have a husband who believes the same thing and is very supportive. It's tough. Really tough. Day in and day out without work. But you keep moving forward. So there you go peeps. Lots on my mind these days and trying to keep up with it all.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Pictures and an update
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I hope that you can all view these pictures. I have my profile set pretty private so let me know if anyone tries and it doesn't work. I don't love posting pics in 2 places but I can attempt it if need be.
This week marks one month since being out of Florida. It's a little strange. It means we've been CA for 3 weeks and in our apartment for 2 weeks. Everything's in our name now and bills are starting to come, which means we're really here:) Knowing that we've been out of FL that long is weird though. Time is flying SO fast that it doesn't feel like we've been gone that long. I miss my friends, our friends. It took about a year to really settle there and then this past year was just amazing with the friendships that were formed. Those are the ones I miss the most. I can't just go hang out at Kelly's pool with her and the kids; can't call Amy and Jess and head to the mall; can't get dinner with Mike & Tara; can't have Ray over to play Maria Party (btw, haven't played since we left Ray); and can't see so many other people on a regular basis that I was used to doing. These people were, and still are, my family. They were the ones I relied on when I needed something, or when something in life was falling apart. I was just reminded today of how many we actually know out here already, which is great because it gives us things to do besides searching for jobs. But it's not the same as having those close relationships. I miss them. I want them back.
I went to Kohl's today and met the head honcho. She's nice and seemed interested, I would just need to learn a new position. I also have been in touch with a woman who has a 9 month old little boy and they need a nanny. I don't think I'll be able to do both but I'm not going to make any decisions until I have to. Kohl's is almost a half hour drive. I have FINALLY completed my application packet for the state of California - fingerprints are nasty expensive by the way. Though I'm doubting I'll teach this year, it's good to have something else in my little bag of tricks to be able to pull out when necessary. I'm on a couple different nanny sites and working on applying to tutor as well. Lots of opportunities but not a lot of responses yet. I've been reminded numerous times though that it's not about my time but His time. He wouldn't call us here and then let us fail immediately. It's a faith walk every single day, but my husband is amazing and reminds me constantly where our trust should be.
Speaking of my husband, we just celebrated our 5 year anniversary on the 10th. When we got married we thought this would be the year of adding a ring or doing something big. Well I guess we did something big, though I wasn't thinking a move. I am amazed that 5 years has gone by so quickly. We have definitely had our ups and downs but I'm so blessed to be with this man. He is constantly changing and growing and learning. When I think of the man I married and the man in front of me today, it's such a blessing. I was reminded of the fragility of marriage the other day. So many fall apart. We all struggle. It's going to be a fight to have a good one. 5 years is a big deal for me, for anyone. I don't know what the years to come are going to bring but I know we've made it through some crazy stuff already so I'm thinking we'll just keep fighting.
Ooooo... I should list the places I've been so far.
1. overlook to see the Hollywood sign
2. Seal Beach
3. Malibu
4. through Hollywood
5. In-N-Out (numerous times:)
6. LAX
7. a premier showing of "Chop, Cut, Rebuild" on the Speed channel thanks to Joffrey
8. The Fashion District downtown (it reminded me of the Flea Market in Shipshe:)
9. The Rose Bowl
I think that's it so far. I have so many places to go yet. If you're from Southern Cali and know of places to visit that are cheap and/or free, please make a list for me. Thanks:)
My posts tend to be random, but there's a lot of stuff going on right now and I'm trying to keep everyone up with all that's going on. I'm thinking about sending another newsletter but don't like the idea of using all those stamps:) I'm hoping everyone's keeping up with the blog, but I'm sure there are people who don't have internet. So watch for a letter sometime in the coming months. Maybe so more specifics.
I hope that you can all view these pictures. I have my profile set pretty private so let me know if anyone tries and it doesn't work. I don't love posting pics in 2 places but I can attempt it if need be.
This week marks one month since being out of Florida. It's a little strange. It means we've been CA for 3 weeks and in our apartment for 2 weeks. Everything's in our name now and bills are starting to come, which means we're really here:) Knowing that we've been out of FL that long is weird though. Time is flying SO fast that it doesn't feel like we've been gone that long. I miss my friends, our friends. It took about a year to really settle there and then this past year was just amazing with the friendships that were formed. Those are the ones I miss the most. I can't just go hang out at Kelly's pool with her and the kids; can't call Amy and Jess and head to the mall; can't get dinner with Mike & Tara; can't have Ray over to play Maria Party (btw, haven't played since we left Ray); and can't see so many other people on a regular basis that I was used to doing. These people were, and still are, my family. They were the ones I relied on when I needed something, or when something in life was falling apart. I was just reminded today of how many we actually know out here already, which is great because it gives us things to do besides searching for jobs. But it's not the same as having those close relationships. I miss them. I want them back.
I went to Kohl's today and met the head honcho. She's nice and seemed interested, I would just need to learn a new position. I also have been in touch with a woman who has a 9 month old little boy and they need a nanny. I don't think I'll be able to do both but I'm not going to make any decisions until I have to. Kohl's is almost a half hour drive. I have FINALLY completed my application packet for the state of California - fingerprints are nasty expensive by the way. Though I'm doubting I'll teach this year, it's good to have something else in my little bag of tricks to be able to pull out when necessary. I'm on a couple different nanny sites and working on applying to tutor as well. Lots of opportunities but not a lot of responses yet. I've been reminded numerous times though that it's not about my time but His time. He wouldn't call us here and then let us fail immediately. It's a faith walk every single day, but my husband is amazing and reminds me constantly where our trust should be.
Speaking of my husband, we just celebrated our 5 year anniversary on the 10th. When we got married we thought this would be the year of adding a ring or doing something big. Well I guess we did something big, though I wasn't thinking a move. I am amazed that 5 years has gone by so quickly. We have definitely had our ups and downs but I'm so blessed to be with this man. He is constantly changing and growing and learning. When I think of the man I married and the man in front of me today, it's such a blessing. I was reminded of the fragility of marriage the other day. So many fall apart. We all struggle. It's going to be a fight to have a good one. 5 years is a big deal for me, for anyone. I don't know what the years to come are going to bring but I know we've made it through some crazy stuff already so I'm thinking we'll just keep fighting.
Ooooo... I should list the places I've been so far.
1. overlook to see the Hollywood sign
2. Seal Beach
3. Malibu
4. through Hollywood
5. In-N-Out (numerous times:)
6. LAX
7. a premier showing of "Chop, Cut, Rebuild" on the Speed channel thanks to Joffrey
8. The Fashion District downtown (it reminded me of the Flea Market in Shipshe:)
9. The Rose Bowl
I think that's it so far. I have so many places to go yet. If you're from Southern Cali and know of places to visit that are cheap and/or free, please make a list for me. Thanks:)
My posts tend to be random, but there's a lot of stuff going on right now and I'm trying to keep everyone up with all that's going on. I'm thinking about sending another newsletter but don't like the idea of using all those stamps:) I'm hoping everyone's keeping up with the blog, but I'm sure there are people who don't have internet. So watch for a letter sometime in the coming months. Maybe so more specifics.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
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Our bedroom
This is just our bedroom. The other video is too big apparently. Be watching for it though.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
This trip
In Colorado I was so blessed to find Heidi and spend Saturday morning with her over breakfast. We went to high school and church together for a while. After that we went our separate ways but Facebook brought us back together. I’m not gonna lie, I didn’t really know what to expect when catching up with her. You never really do. People change over the years. You need to change. It’s just a matter of whether the friendship will last the changes. Catching up with Heidi was great though. I had nothing to worry about. I love that our hearts beat the same in so many ways and that God made it possible to catch up on this journey. I can’t wait to see you again Heidi and I’m so glad you are where you are, doing what you’re doing.
In the past few days I’ve been able to catch up with another friend from high school days. Again, we’ve gone our different ways and had very different experiences, but Libby is the same as ever. We’re so relational and our personalities blend so well together. I think it’s been interesting for Danny to watch b/c being around Libby brings out some of who I was in high school, more than Danny has every really been around. I think it’s just been different for him to watch. We didn’t know each other in high school. But I am loving having Libby around while she visits her sister out here. We’ve realized how much we have to catch up on over the years but I’m excited that we still have a friendship after so many years apart. I’m truly blessed.
We were without Internet for about a week since we left Kurt and Penny’s Tuesday morning. It was good to not have it and be attached to the world constantly. Definitely made me realize that I don’t need it as much as I like to think I do. At the same time, I’ve realized how much I do need it to find work. There’s a lot of finger work I can do online that will save me from driving and sometimes even calling. It was hard not having a place to live because it felt like we couldn’t move forward from there. We couldn’t look for work b/c we didn’t know we’d be living and we were just stuck. It was so frustrating at times but you can only do one thing at a time. So now that we have a place, and a refrigerator, the only thing left is to find work. We have spent quite a bit of money along this journey. I realized that as I entered our many receipts. That’s why we sent out the “support” letter asking for help and letting everyone know our hearts behind this move. I know that God will supply – He already has in so many ways. But we can’t do it alone and I’m so thankful for the many prayers that are being offered on our behalf. Our future is not possible without those.
So from here, Danny and I need to work on saving some money somehow and buying a new mattress. We sold ours in Florida b/c it would’ve been too big for the trip and was 5 years old. We’re ready for a queen size. Until that time we’re sleeping on our air mattress. Luckily we found a queen bed frame so at least we’re off the floor now☺. The other big thing from here on out is finding work. Danny is a visionary and has a lot of ideas about things he can do to make money out here. He’ll probably apply to some stores in the area to have some regular income. The movie market is slow right now but is supposed to pick up again in the fall. He also has a good handful of contacts he needs to get in touch with. It’s all a process. I have a few options as well that I’m going to be looking into. So if you pray, we would appreciate them on our behalf.
It’s amazing to me that we’ve been in LA for 2 weeks already. It’s flown by, which tells me that life here goes fast. We’ve been to the ocean twice, saw the Hollywood sign, and drove through Universal. Danny met one of the main characters from It’s always Sunny today. He’s constantly saying you only live once so we need to not let opportunities pass us by. I like how he’s taking life by the horns and holding on for all it’s worth! We celebrated our 5 year anniversary on Friday night with friends. I’m amazed that 5 years has gone as fast as it has. Time has flown by. I’m so blessed by the things God has taken us through, what we’ve learned together, and how we’ve grown together. I can’t wait to see what the next 5 years entails.
So as much as we miss you all, every single last one of you from Indiana, to Florida, to Connecticut, to Colorado, to wherever else you may be around the country and the world, we’re excited for where we are and what God has up His sleeve. We love you and pray that you would take life by the horns every single day. You only live once so make it the best life ever.
PS – our new address is below. Phone numbers will remain the same for now.
420 W. Windsor Rd. #15
Glendale, CA 91204
In the past few days I’ve been able to catch up with another friend from high school days. Again, we’ve gone our different ways and had very different experiences, but Libby is the same as ever. We’re so relational and our personalities blend so well together. I think it’s been interesting for Danny to watch b/c being around Libby brings out some of who I was in high school, more than Danny has every really been around. I think it’s just been different for him to watch. We didn’t know each other in high school. But I am loving having Libby around while she visits her sister out here. We’ve realized how much we have to catch up on over the years but I’m excited that we still have a friendship after so many years apart. I’m truly blessed.
We were without Internet for about a week since we left Kurt and Penny’s Tuesday morning. It was good to not have it and be attached to the world constantly. Definitely made me realize that I don’t need it as much as I like to think I do. At the same time, I’ve realized how much I do need it to find work. There’s a lot of finger work I can do online that will save me from driving and sometimes even calling. It was hard not having a place to live because it felt like we couldn’t move forward from there. We couldn’t look for work b/c we didn’t know we’d be living and we were just stuck. It was so frustrating at times but you can only do one thing at a time. So now that we have a place, and a refrigerator, the only thing left is to find work. We have spent quite a bit of money along this journey. I realized that as I entered our many receipts. That’s why we sent out the “support” letter asking for help and letting everyone know our hearts behind this move. I know that God will supply – He already has in so many ways. But we can’t do it alone and I’m so thankful for the many prayers that are being offered on our behalf. Our future is not possible without those.
So from here, Danny and I need to work on saving some money somehow and buying a new mattress. We sold ours in Florida b/c it would’ve been too big for the trip and was 5 years old. We’re ready for a queen size. Until that time we’re sleeping on our air mattress. Luckily we found a queen bed frame so at least we’re off the floor now☺. The other big thing from here on out is finding work. Danny is a visionary and has a lot of ideas about things he can do to make money out here. He’ll probably apply to some stores in the area to have some regular income. The movie market is slow right now but is supposed to pick up again in the fall. He also has a good handful of contacts he needs to get in touch with. It’s all a process. I have a few options as well that I’m going to be looking into. So if you pray, we would appreciate them on our behalf.
It’s amazing to me that we’ve been in LA for 2 weeks already. It’s flown by, which tells me that life here goes fast. We’ve been to the ocean twice, saw the Hollywood sign, and drove through Universal. Danny met one of the main characters from It’s always Sunny today. He’s constantly saying you only live once so we need to not let opportunities pass us by. I like how he’s taking life by the horns and holding on for all it’s worth! We celebrated our 5 year anniversary on Friday night with friends. I’m amazed that 5 years has gone as fast as it has. Time has flown by. I’m so blessed by the things God has taken us through, what we’ve learned together, and how we’ve grown together. I can’t wait to see what the next 5 years entails.
So as much as we miss you all, every single last one of you from Indiana, to Florida, to Connecticut, to Colorado, to wherever else you may be around the country and the world, we’re excited for where we are and what God has up His sleeve. We love you and pray that you would take life by the horns every single day. You only live once so make it the best life ever.
PS – our new address is below. Phone numbers will remain the same for now.
420 W. Windsor Rd. #15
Glendale, CA 91204
LA
We finally got into Los Angeles on June 29th. We drove into the area around 7 or 8pm so it was still light outside. There were so many emotions to experience driving in. I’ve been in Cali before for a friends wedding but it was up north around Sacramento and San Francisco. This was completely different. Danny and I know that we’re called here. We know we’re supposed to be here. There’s no question in either of our minds. But driving in… that was enough to make both us think twice. Smog. Cars everywhere. Knowing this was going to be our new home, especially after leaving Colorado and all that we had just experienced there, was difficult. Overwhelming is really a better word for it. There was so much to take in.
We went straight to Kurt and Penny’s and then straight to Joff’s to unload the trailer. Kurt and Penny were amazing in allowing us to crash on their floor with a dog that they were unaware of. Sorry Penny! But it all worked out. Tuesday we spent the day apartment hunting and getting to know the area a little bit. This is when it hit Danny and I the most I think. The realization of what we were really doing, what we’d left behind, and how big this move really was in our lives. We were emotionally exhausted Tuesday night. There was so much to take in at one time, so much to think about and make decisions about, my brain was on overload and just needed a break. That didn’t feel like an option though really so we just kept pushing forward. Luckily the more we drove around and searched for an apartment, the more we got to know the area, and the more realistic it started becoming. We had to have the conversation and making sure we really were where we were supposed to be because of all the emotions. It would have been SO easy to turn right back around and return to Colorado. But we know. And so we stayed.
We found our apartment July 5th and put in our application on the 6th. The rest of that Monday was probably one of the longest days of our lives. We didn’t really have any reason to think we would be rejected, but after looking for that long without any other really good leads was nerve-racking. We spent the day downtown Burbank just people watching and then spent the evening in Glendale. Tuesday morning when our landlord called to say we had been accepted I literally jumped for joy☺. We got everyone together, put our deposit down, and started the moving process immediately.
Lisa, Danny, and I all got our stuff moved in Tuesday and slept in our new place. We got Joffrey moved in Wednesday and then just worked on settling everything and getting out of boxes. It’s taken all week to do but I think we’re finally ready to just live. We’re in a 3 bedroom, 2 bath apartment. Joffrey and Lisa are both classmates of Danny’s from Full Sail. We’re very glad to be sharing the place with them both. Our rent is less than what it was in Florida because of sharing space which will be very helpful in the coming months.
We went straight to Kurt and Penny’s and then straight to Joff’s to unload the trailer. Kurt and Penny were amazing in allowing us to crash on their floor with a dog that they were unaware of. Sorry Penny! But it all worked out. Tuesday we spent the day apartment hunting and getting to know the area a little bit. This is when it hit Danny and I the most I think. The realization of what we were really doing, what we’d left behind, and how big this move really was in our lives. We were emotionally exhausted Tuesday night. There was so much to take in at one time, so much to think about and make decisions about, my brain was on overload and just needed a break. That didn’t feel like an option though really so we just kept pushing forward. Luckily the more we drove around and searched for an apartment, the more we got to know the area, and the more realistic it started becoming. We had to have the conversation and making sure we really were where we were supposed to be because of all the emotions. It would have been SO easy to turn right back around and return to Colorado. But we know. And so we stayed.
We found our apartment July 5th and put in our application on the 6th. The rest of that Monday was probably one of the longest days of our lives. We didn’t really have any reason to think we would be rejected, but after looking for that long without any other really good leads was nerve-racking. We spent the day downtown Burbank just people watching and then spent the evening in Glendale. Tuesday morning when our landlord called to say we had been accepted I literally jumped for joy☺. We got everyone together, put our deposit down, and started the moving process immediately.
Lisa, Danny, and I all got our stuff moved in Tuesday and slept in our new place. We got Joffrey moved in Wednesday and then just worked on settling everything and getting out of boxes. It’s taken all week to do but I think we’re finally ready to just live. We’re in a 3 bedroom, 2 bath apartment. Joffrey and Lisa are both classmates of Danny’s from Full Sail. We’re very glad to be sharing the place with them both. Our rent is less than what it was in Florida because of sharing space which will be very helpful in the coming months.
The Wedding
From the 24th until the 28th we spent time with some amazing people in Colorado celebrating the union of two wonderful friends. We slept at Scott’s house and were so blessed by his generosity, along with his housemates. Thank you so much guys! Cooper was a hit from the beginning and loved by all. We spent so much just hanging out, spending time together, catching up from years of not being together. We hadn’t seen Josh since our wedding basically and then seeing Jeremy and Mike was another great blessing.
Josh and Chelsea are a beautiful couple who fit together so well. God has truly blessed their union and blessed them with amazing family. We had heard so much about all these people that we met but never met them. They exceeded any expectations we had. Getting to know Chelsea and the wonderful women she calls friends was such a blessing for me. We gelled immediately. I cannot describe the feeling of acceptance and love that I felt from these women. Ladies, thank you so much for making me feel a part of your friendship and welcoming me in.
While Danny bonded with the boys I got to help Chelsea make candy apples for their wedding favors. We literally spent all day, about 12 hours, completing this project. It made for some great memories and a great way to get to know Chelsea and her family and friends before the big day.
The rehearsal dinner was beautiful. Josh and Chelsea had wonderful words of appreciation and love for all involved. The most beautiful part for me was when Chelsea’s dad affirmed Joshua as a man in front of all of us. There are many reasons why that was incredibly special and an honor to be a part of.
Chelsea’s family is amazing and blessed Danny and I by inviting us for to brunch Sunday morning before we took off. Her parents especially are just incredible. They took us under their wings and just let loved on us while we were in their presence. Tammy and Bruce, thank you again for your amazing hospitality and generosity. Your lives are an amazing witness.
Josh and Chelsea are a beautiful couple who fit together so well. God has truly blessed their union and blessed them with amazing family. We had heard so much about all these people that we met but never met them. They exceeded any expectations we had. Getting to know Chelsea and the wonderful women she calls friends was such a blessing for me. We gelled immediately. I cannot describe the feeling of acceptance and love that I felt from these women. Ladies, thank you so much for making me feel a part of your friendship and welcoming me in.
While Danny bonded with the boys I got to help Chelsea make candy apples for their wedding favors. We literally spent all day, about 12 hours, completing this project. It made for some great memories and a great way to get to know Chelsea and her family and friends before the big day.
The rehearsal dinner was beautiful. Josh and Chelsea had wonderful words of appreciation and love for all involved. The most beautiful part for me was when Chelsea’s dad affirmed Joshua as a man in front of all of us. There are many reasons why that was incredibly special and an honor to be a part of.
Chelsea’s family is amazing and blessed Danny and I by inviting us for to brunch Sunday morning before we took off. Her parents especially are just incredible. They took us under their wings and just let loved on us while we were in their presence. Tammy and Bruce, thank you again for your amazing hospitality and generosity. Your lives are an amazing witness.
The End
From Colorado we went straight south, and then straight west. It took a while for me to think that New Mexico and Arizona were beautiful. Part of it was just me being ready for our trip to be over and seeing the same thing. Part of it was also the fact that we were driving through the desert. I had to laugh. My kids did a project on different regions of our country this year and one group did the desert. The way they decorated their landscape was just not what I thought of as desert, but I’d never really been to a desert. Being in the area, I had to admit that what they put on their project was exactly what I was looking at. The red rock is really quite pretty, just completely different than what I expected it to be like.
Driving through that region was also hard because there were many more hills and mountains than I anticipated. Coming out of Denver we could have gone across the mountains through Utah. We didn’t think those steep grades would be a good idea with our car though so we missed out on some great areas of the country. We thought that going south we would miss the mountainous areas. That wasn’t exactly how it worked though. It was actually worse than Colorado in certain areas. There were times when we were only driving about 25 mph going uphill. It definitely took us longer but it all worked out in the end. There were definitely times of frustration while climbing when we just had to keep positive attitudes and not push the car harder than we already were.
Upon crossing the California state line you have to stop. It’s like crossing the border in from Mexico sort of. We were asked if we had any food and the guy checked our trailer and let us go. I’m very glad Joffrey warned us about that ahead of time. Then we paid for our first tank of gas and realized we were officially in California!
Driving through that region was also hard because there were many more hills and mountains than I anticipated. Coming out of Denver we could have gone across the mountains through Utah. We didn’t think those steep grades would be a good idea with our car though so we missed out on some great areas of the country. We thought that going south we would miss the mountainous areas. That wasn’t exactly how it worked though. It was actually worse than Colorado in certain areas. There were times when we were only driving about 25 mph going uphill. It definitely took us longer but it all worked out in the end. There were definitely times of frustration while climbing when we just had to keep positive attitudes and not push the car harder than we already were.
Upon crossing the California state line you have to stop. It’s like crossing the border in from Mexico sort of. We were asked if we had any food and the guy checked our trailer and let us go. I’m very glad Joffrey warned us about that ahead of time. Then we paid for our first tank of gas and realized we were officially in California!
The Beginning
We left Florida on June 22 and got to Colorado on the 24th in time to have dinner with the gang. The drive there was pretty uneventful, which we were happy about. It took us getting out of Florida to really understand how to drive our little Honda Civic (4 cylinder) while pulling a trailer. Who knew that north Florida, in the panhandle, was so hilly?! Even going up the coast we definitely had some times of revving the engine up around 4000. Our transmission got a major workout. As soon as we got into Colorado it was an immediate climb. We definitely had a few miles of driving about 40 miles an hour while climbing. It was rough, especially when most other cars are flying by at the speed limit. It was even harder when trucks passed us. Yuck!
One of the great parts of this drive was passing through East Texas. This is where Danny and I met 9 years ago and where God started us on the journey that took us across this amazing country. We contemplated stopping at Teen Mania, but we really wanted to just get to our destination. It definitely brought back memories though. Especially ones of my dear friend Heather Kircher; driving her station wagon through those hills and worshipping together. Truly though, the best part of that drive was simply seeing the differences in the landscape of our country. America is quite large and completely diverse. Just going through the green south, through the hills of Texas, and then the rolling plains of the Midwest was beautiful. We were able to watch a few thunderstorms driving through Kansas that apparently were occurring in Nebraska. Being able to see for miles upon miles is something easily taken for granted. It was amazing to think about the differences and yet know that God created every single parcel of land. Our country is truly beautiful; and we hadn’t even gotten to the really good part yet!
Getting into the Denver area was pretty incredible. I’m going to run out of adjectives to describe our country pretty soon. Danny and I were there for a weekend while doing our internship with Teen Mania. I don’t remember driving in though. There was so much unoccupied land! I guess it would be considered ranch land; very hilly and not much vegetation. You really couldn’t grow things there but it was so different to see that much land fenced in, and yet with nothing on it. Staying in the area and having mountains in view every morning was a great perk. I really like Colorado and would love for God to move us there once our time in LA is done.
One of the great parts of this drive was passing through East Texas. This is where Danny and I met 9 years ago and where God started us on the journey that took us across this amazing country. We contemplated stopping at Teen Mania, but we really wanted to just get to our destination. It definitely brought back memories though. Especially ones of my dear friend Heather Kircher; driving her station wagon through those hills and worshipping together. Truly though, the best part of that drive was simply seeing the differences in the landscape of our country. America is quite large and completely diverse. Just going through the green south, through the hills of Texas, and then the rolling plains of the Midwest was beautiful. We were able to watch a few thunderstorms driving through Kansas that apparently were occurring in Nebraska. Being able to see for miles upon miles is something easily taken for granted. It was amazing to think about the differences and yet know that God created every single parcel of land. Our country is truly beautiful; and we hadn’t even gotten to the really good part yet!
Getting into the Denver area was pretty incredible. I’m going to run out of adjectives to describe our country pretty soon. Danny and I were there for a weekend while doing our internship with Teen Mania. I don’t remember driving in though. There was so much unoccupied land! I guess it would be considered ranch land; very hilly and not much vegetation. You really couldn’t grow things there but it was so different to see that much land fenced in, and yet with nothing on it. Staying in the area and having mountains in view every morning was a great perk. I really like Colorado and would love for God to move us there once our time in LA is done.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
vacation
We spent the last 2.5 days on the south side of Orlando at a resort with our friend Ray. Ray is amazing by the way. He's been incredibly giving and a true servant in the short time that I've really known him. I'm very sad to be leaving him, as well as many others, behind as we begin this new journey.
It was a great couple days though. Lots of hanging out at the pool with great people and yummy food. Said more goodbyes and took many pictures. I'm beginning to realize that I need to let the tears flow when they come. I haven't actually cried yet but Kelly mentioned that I maybe should allow that to begin b/c then Monday when we're leaving, I don't want it to all hit me at one time. I need to deal with it as it happens. Yuck. I'm not looking forward to the leaving part, though I can't wait for the things that are going to come. These people that we're saying good-bye to are truly like our family. They have been there for the good and the bad, the highs and lows, and they have given of themselves at times more than family has. They are in vicinity so it makes it easier but still. We have been soooo blessed by these people so leaving them is incredibly hard. I can only pray that God takes care of us again and provides friends who will encourage, who we can learn from, and who will become our new family. The one thing I'm excited about is the opportunity to travel and see these people we're leaving behind. I know that's going to be a while b/c of finances, but I'm believing that this is not the end and one day, there will be an amazing reunion:) So, here's to the tears that have not yet been shed. I'm not a crier but sometimes I wish I was. It might make it easier.
It was a great couple days though. Lots of hanging out at the pool with great people and yummy food. Said more goodbyes and took many pictures. I'm beginning to realize that I need to let the tears flow when they come. I haven't actually cried yet but Kelly mentioned that I maybe should allow that to begin b/c then Monday when we're leaving, I don't want it to all hit me at one time. I need to deal with it as it happens. Yuck. I'm not looking forward to the leaving part, though I can't wait for the things that are going to come. These people that we're saying good-bye to are truly like our family. They have been there for the good and the bad, the highs and lows, and they have given of themselves at times more than family has. They are in vicinity so it makes it easier but still. We have been soooo blessed by these people so leaving them is incredibly hard. I can only pray that God takes care of us again and provides friends who will encourage, who we can learn from, and who will become our new family. The one thing I'm excited about is the opportunity to travel and see these people we're leaving behind. I know that's going to be a while b/c of finances, but I'm believing that this is not the end and one day, there will be an amazing reunion:) So, here's to the tears that have not yet been shed. I'm not a crier but sometimes I wish I was. It might make it easier.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
updated pictures
Our current bedroom. We sold the bed today so we'll be sleeping on an air mattress for a while. It's actually bigger than our bed was so I'm kinda excited about that. It's funny. The lamp will not be coming along with us so it's really just our clothes in this room.
This is our dining room. Ha! There are pieces of duct tape on the floor and one on the wall. These are our marks to show how much space we will have in the trailer. The table is going along, which I'm super excited about, so it's torn down and then the other things that are currently packed. We just need to pack the kitchen and bathroom basically yet.
The living room. The chair is coming along and the pillows but that's about it. We are hoping to sell the tv next weekend as well as the end tables. The boxes are all waiting to be packed.
And this is just a picture of Cooper. He likes to snuggle with the pillows on the floor, but not us:( He was just so cute posing like this; his paws are almost crossed:)
I was really emotional last night about some different things and then was completely reminded this morning about the fact of who I am, who I'm not, who God is, and how much my circumstances matter. It was good. And necessary.
2 weeks from Monday we start our trip. 3 days of work left for me at CIL and then I need to check in with Kohl's to see if I got scheduled at all. Things are definitely winding down and I'm hoping to use the time to really prepare myself for all that we're getting into. I know I'll need it. So that's life as of today. We'll see what happens tomorrow. One of our roommates is checking out a house for us. Pray that it goes well:)
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Moving stuff
So Danny is off watching the first Final's game (Magic v. Lakers). It's a little late for me and I don't want to be cranky with the kids on our last day together. I was going to sit and watch a movie and here I've "wasted" all my time online. Standing at that.
It's been a funny afternoon. We had those whole pile of stuff that we wanted to get rid of. We were hoping to garage sale it one way or another. It's stuff that you can't really craigslist; small decorative stuff that you need to see at garage sales:) It's been sitting there a good couple weeks I would say. We got rid of the washer and dryer yesterday finally and so today, we both were in a random mood and decided to pack all our stuff into the laundry room. When we measured it though it was a little small (we were going for the size of our U-haul trailer). So instead, we tore down the table (I REALLY want to take it with us) and our "dining room" is now our "trailer" so that we can get an idea of space and what we can actually take. All that to say that we were tired of the other stuff just sitting around and finally just took it to Goodwill! Our apartment is so empty. No more chairs; just pillows. Random things to try and sell sitting around. The kitchen is about the only place that is still "normal."
We start our journey 2 weeks from Monday. That's the beginning. It's almost here. I have to say good-bye. These are the thoughts running through my head. Praise God for reasons to praise Him though. I was listening to a song tonight that reminded me again that it doesn't matter what my day or week has been like, there's ALWAYS a reason to praise Him. And so in the midst of my feeling like life is a bit... chaotic? I can still praise my Jesus and find peace and rest in Him. He is my rock and my fortress, the one who inhabits our praises. Even when the world is going crazy (my little world and the big world that we live in), He is the same. He is the only thing that I cling to. So even though today has been strange by letting go of more stuff and preparing ourselves more for this journey, He is God. His thoughts towards me are always good. Always. Reality settles in more on a daily basis, literally. And all I can do is rely on my Jesus. He is my peace and comfort when life is full of storms.
It's been a funny afternoon. We had those whole pile of stuff that we wanted to get rid of. We were hoping to garage sale it one way or another. It's stuff that you can't really craigslist; small decorative stuff that you need to see at garage sales:) It's been sitting there a good couple weeks I would say. We got rid of the washer and dryer yesterday finally and so today, we both were in a random mood and decided to pack all our stuff into the laundry room. When we measured it though it was a little small (we were going for the size of our U-haul trailer). So instead, we tore down the table (I REALLY want to take it with us) and our "dining room" is now our "trailer" so that we can get an idea of space and what we can actually take. All that to say that we were tired of the other stuff just sitting around and finally just took it to Goodwill! Our apartment is so empty. No more chairs; just pillows. Random things to try and sell sitting around. The kitchen is about the only place that is still "normal."
We start our journey 2 weeks from Monday. That's the beginning. It's almost here. I have to say good-bye. These are the thoughts running through my head. Praise God for reasons to praise Him though. I was listening to a song tonight that reminded me again that it doesn't matter what my day or week has been like, there's ALWAYS a reason to praise Him. And so in the midst of my feeling like life is a bit... chaotic? I can still praise my Jesus and find peace and rest in Him. He is my rock and my fortress, the one who inhabits our praises. Even when the world is going crazy (my little world and the big world that we live in), He is the same. He is the only thing that I cling to. So even though today has been strange by letting go of more stuff and preparing ourselves more for this journey, He is God. His thoughts towards me are always good. Always. Reality settles in more on a daily basis, literally. And all I can do is rely on my Jesus. He is my peace and comfort when life is full of storms.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
challenges
We've been dealing with some lately. Teeth. Backs. Bodies that are falling apart a little bit. I thought that wasn't supposed to happen until you were older but apparently.... we're older:) We're definitely learning that it's a matter of taking care of your body all the time and not just when it starts hurting.
As I'm sure you're aware, fixing things costs money. This is not money we were planning on spending and is also not money that we really have. It's been frustrating, not gonna lie. It's made us question what we're doing, which sucks.
I realized what we're fighting for today though. Church has been great, as always. I really like what we're learning about; it's been exactly what we have needed to hear. It's really great when God reminds me of what His purpose is. We're not fighting our finances, each other, or our bodies. We're fighting against the powers of darkness. I've been reminded that it's time to laugh in the face of the devil because we won't be stopped. Praise the Lord for dreams and for His power within.
Thanks for your prayers everyone. They are constantly necessary.
As I'm sure you're aware, fixing things costs money. This is not money we were planning on spending and is also not money that we really have. It's been frustrating, not gonna lie. It's made us question what we're doing, which sucks.
I realized what we're fighting for today though. Church has been great, as always. I really like what we're learning about; it's been exactly what we have needed to hear. It's really great when God reminds me of what His purpose is. We're not fighting our finances, each other, or our bodies. We're fighting against the powers of darkness. I've been reminded that it's time to laugh in the face of the devil because we won't be stopped. Praise the Lord for dreams and for His power within.
Thanks for your prayers everyone. They are constantly necessary.
Friday, May 22, 2009
Countdown
I just realized that today is May 22. We have 30 days until we leave Florida. 30 days. The washer and dryer will sell next weekend. Danny gets home today from Indiana where he was able to do quite a few photo shoots with family and friends. We're looking at some places to live and I'm still working on figuring out the district system in California. Every state is different. Thank the Lord for friends who live there or have lived there. I'm so thankful for the help people have given us and the way people are willing to help us get settled there.
One of the ladies at work left yesterday. She and her husband are moving to TN next week to be closer to family. It was a small glimpse of what it's going to be like in a couple more weeks. I've told everyone I'm holding off emotion until we officially leave, though tears are welling up as I write this. We've been so blessed here, and so well taken care of. Time for a new season though.
One of the ladies at work left yesterday. She and her husband are moving to TN next week to be closer to family. It was a small glimpse of what it's going to be like in a couple more weeks. I've told everyone I'm holding off emotion until we officially leave, though tears are welling up as I write this. We've been so blessed here, and so well taken care of. Time for a new season though.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
it's been a few weeks
So I figured I should post something. Life just keeps moving. We sent out support letters about a week ago. No response really yet but we're believing that the Lord has us in His hands. He knows our plans; He's the one who planned it out. I know He will continue to provide just as He has in the past. Nothing new:)
I think we're down to about 5 weeks. There are 3 weeks of school left and then I think we have 2 weeks of being here in June. Then it's time. We've been spending a lot of time with friends lately and barely eating at home. Great for our grocery bill but sometimes not so good for our dining out bill. We need to continue to be careful about that one. Granted, it's been so much fun hanging out with people and getting to know people better, even as our time here comes to a close. It's all about relationships, no matter how much time you have with people. Gotta make the best of it all.
We've sold more things; the guitar (sad), the washer and dryer is going at the end of the month, the TV stand, and the DVD player. Our apartment is looking rather bare these days but I saw a trailer like the one we'll be pulling and.... yeah. We need to keep selling stuff. There's very little room in there. And I don't believe in taking things that we don't need. I'm all about getting rid of it. We'll sleep on the air mattress for as long as we need to.
My mom is here this weekend and then Danny flies back north with her on Monday so I'll have the week to myself. I'm hoping to exercise and get some phone calls in. I also know that I'll have work at work, and at Kohl's, to do. Report card time is coming quickly, again. End of the year is just as busy as the beginning of the year. But retention conferences are over and that's a plus. Final evaluation is over as well. June is going to be difficult. Seeing my kids go and then leaving my school for the last time. My friend Tara and I... we're going to be basket-cases the last 3 days when it's just teachers, and probably the last couple of days with the kids as well. I'm not really one who cries a lot, but Tara has been more emotional lately and when people say certain things... I know I'm going to lose it. It's good though. It'll just be hard. Probably harder leaving here than leaving IN actually. The friendships are different as we've had to work at them; we didn't just grow up with these people. And they've been our "family" when we've been all alone. I'm going to stop there. No need for tears yet. Florida has definitely become special.
I think we're down to about 5 weeks. There are 3 weeks of school left and then I think we have 2 weeks of being here in June. Then it's time. We've been spending a lot of time with friends lately and barely eating at home. Great for our grocery bill but sometimes not so good for our dining out bill. We need to continue to be careful about that one. Granted, it's been so much fun hanging out with people and getting to know people better, even as our time here comes to a close. It's all about relationships, no matter how much time you have with people. Gotta make the best of it all.
We've sold more things; the guitar (sad), the washer and dryer is going at the end of the month, the TV stand, and the DVD player. Our apartment is looking rather bare these days but I saw a trailer like the one we'll be pulling and.... yeah. We need to keep selling stuff. There's very little room in there. And I don't believe in taking things that we don't need. I'm all about getting rid of it. We'll sleep on the air mattress for as long as we need to.
My mom is here this weekend and then Danny flies back north with her on Monday so I'll have the week to myself. I'm hoping to exercise and get some phone calls in. I also know that I'll have work at work, and at Kohl's, to do. Report card time is coming quickly, again. End of the year is just as busy as the beginning of the year. But retention conferences are over and that's a plus. Final evaluation is over as well. June is going to be difficult. Seeing my kids go and then leaving my school for the last time. My friend Tara and I... we're going to be basket-cases the last 3 days when it's just teachers, and probably the last couple of days with the kids as well. I'm not really one who cries a lot, but Tara has been more emotional lately and when people say certain things... I know I'm going to lose it. It's good though. It'll just be hard. Probably harder leaving here than leaving IN actually. The friendships are different as we've had to work at them; we didn't just grow up with these people. And they've been our "family" when we've been all alone. I'm going to stop there. No need for tears yet. Florida has definitely become special.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
a break down
It's been a big week. Or so it feels.
We are selling about half of our furniture and getting rid of it on Thursday. That means our couch, computer desk, desk chair, and 3 bookshelves. We're losing a lot of seating basically. We're thinking about buying pillows to sit on the floor in order to be more comfortable. It's interesting "losing" things and getting really into the simplicity of life.
I told all my students on Monday about the move. The 3rd graders are the ones who have taken it the worst, and some of the 4th graders. Most of them were just more excited about the fact that I'll be seeing celebrities on a regular basis. I found that amusing. One of my little guys though, it hit him hard. The other teacher leaving and I had a talk with him today. He gave us both letters and money. We of course gave the money back and he was just really upset. He wanted to help Danny and I buy plane tickets so that we wouldn't have to drive all the way there! So precious. It was rough with him.
I am realizing more and more how short our time is here. I just talked to my mom tonight about coming down and it would be in 2 weeks. Then a couple more weeks and it's Memorial Day and a couple more weeks and we're gone. Gone. It's so ridiculous (that's one of my words:). I'm somewhat in denial that it's happening that fast. But then I look around me and see how part of our house is leaving in 2 days and things are getting boxed up and thrown out. That definitely helps me understand that it's actually happening. It's going to be a very sad day in June when I leave the school for good. Tara and I realized today again though how close we'll be; literally right next to each other (state-wise at least). We're both glad that we're making this trip West semi-together.
Danny just realized he won't have anything to lean up against after Thursday when playing video games. We already talked about how we need to downsize more because of the small U-haul we're getting and then how we're only going to have a bedroom to ourselves. Wow. It's going to be so different. Hopefully it'll be as money-saving as we're hoping it will be.
Above all, my peace is found in the Lord. He reminded me today of the way that He is able to work things out, even when I'm so upset about a situation. He has a way of diffusing things if we allow Him to. He's so good to us. I hope that you know that.
We are selling about half of our furniture and getting rid of it on Thursday. That means our couch, computer desk, desk chair, and 3 bookshelves. We're losing a lot of seating basically. We're thinking about buying pillows to sit on the floor in order to be more comfortable. It's interesting "losing" things and getting really into the simplicity of life.
I told all my students on Monday about the move. The 3rd graders are the ones who have taken it the worst, and some of the 4th graders. Most of them were just more excited about the fact that I'll be seeing celebrities on a regular basis. I found that amusing. One of my little guys though, it hit him hard. The other teacher leaving and I had a talk with him today. He gave us both letters and money. We of course gave the money back and he was just really upset. He wanted to help Danny and I buy plane tickets so that we wouldn't have to drive all the way there! So precious. It was rough with him.
I am realizing more and more how short our time is here. I just talked to my mom tonight about coming down and it would be in 2 weeks. Then a couple more weeks and it's Memorial Day and a couple more weeks and we're gone. Gone. It's so ridiculous (that's one of my words:). I'm somewhat in denial that it's happening that fast. But then I look around me and see how part of our house is leaving in 2 days and things are getting boxed up and thrown out. That definitely helps me understand that it's actually happening. It's going to be a very sad day in June when I leave the school for good. Tara and I realized today again though how close we'll be; literally right next to each other (state-wise at least). We're both glad that we're making this trip West semi-together.
Danny just realized he won't have anything to lean up against after Thursday when playing video games. We already talked about how we need to downsize more because of the small U-haul we're getting and then how we're only going to have a bedroom to ourselves. Wow. It's going to be so different. Hopefully it'll be as money-saving as we're hoping it will be.
Above all, my peace is found in the Lord. He reminded me today of the way that He is able to work things out, even when I'm so upset about a situation. He has a way of diffusing things if we allow Him to. He's so good to us. I hope that you know that.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
waiting
This seems to be the story of my life right now. Waiting. It's been a good season though. Currently I'm waiting on hold to talk to someone in California about transferring my teaching license. What a fun evening.
I officially told my principal on Monday and she responded in a much better way than I was anticipating. Not that I thought it would be horrible but she was really encouraging. Considering I'm the second one from our 4th grade team leaving, that felt like something. She gave me a lot of compliments as well. As hard as she is to work for because of her high expectations, I'm thankful to have had the opportunity and learned how to deal with everything. For the most part:)
Tomorrow is 60 days until the big move out day from our complex. Each day it gets a little bit closer and a little bit more real and a little bit bigger. I'm excited, don't get me wrong, but the reality is sinking in and it's definitely bigger than I initially realized. It just doesn't "hit" you until it starts happening. Especially now that I don't have a job anymore... that was one of those reality sinkers.
I'm so excited though. People continually ask me why and what has made it become official and why we can't stay. All these answers point directly to the Father. He's the author and finisher of our faith and we're doing this because not doing it would be disobedient. We know it's what He's calling us to do, even though it means leaving a place that has become home. I've already told some but I really think it's going to be harder to leave Florida than it was to leave Indiana. We're leaving friends that we've been intentional about having and getting to know and spending time with. I'm leaving an amazing community of teachers and supportive parents. I've told myself I will not cry until June so I need to stop talking about this now.
On the up side, Danny's taking pictures. Lots of them. And they're so good. I'm so excited for him. I love that he's working on opening up other avenues of income for himself by improving his photography skills. If you know him, check them out on his facebook. If you don't, check out www.millerdanny.com for some older ones. I'm so proud of him.
Well I'm off hold now so it's time to go grade papers. Let the count-down begin!
I officially told my principal on Monday and she responded in a much better way than I was anticipating. Not that I thought it would be horrible but she was really encouraging. Considering I'm the second one from our 4th grade team leaving, that felt like something. She gave me a lot of compliments as well. As hard as she is to work for because of her high expectations, I'm thankful to have had the opportunity and learned how to deal with everything. For the most part:)
Tomorrow is 60 days until the big move out day from our complex. Each day it gets a little bit closer and a little bit more real and a little bit bigger. I'm excited, don't get me wrong, but the reality is sinking in and it's definitely bigger than I initially realized. It just doesn't "hit" you until it starts happening. Especially now that I don't have a job anymore... that was one of those reality sinkers.
I'm so excited though. People continually ask me why and what has made it become official and why we can't stay. All these answers point directly to the Father. He's the author and finisher of our faith and we're doing this because not doing it would be disobedient. We know it's what He's calling us to do, even though it means leaving a place that has become home. I've already told some but I really think it's going to be harder to leave Florida than it was to leave Indiana. We're leaving friends that we've been intentional about having and getting to know and spending time with. I'm leaving an amazing community of teachers and supportive parents. I've told myself I will not cry until June so I need to stop talking about this now.
On the up side, Danny's taking pictures. Lots of them. And they're so good. I'm so excited for him. I love that he's working on opening up other avenues of income for himself by improving his photography skills. If you know him, check them out on his facebook. If you don't, check out www.millerdanny.com for some older ones. I'm so proud of him.
Well I'm off hold now so it's time to go grade papers. Let the count-down begin!
Sunday, April 19, 2009
brand new
This is the beginning of something new as we are starting a new season in life very shortly with our move to Los Angeles, CA. We'd love to have you keep up with us and hear about the adventures God takes us on!
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