Since I last posted my husband has come home, we have become official Californians by getting licenses and license plates, and we celebrated my birthday. I'm amazed that October is almost over already. I'm listening to Christmas music as I type, working on getting in the spirit. It will be very different without family this year but I'm hoping we'll make some great memories despite the fact.
Last time I wrote I mentioned I was praying about teaching. As I was sitting tutoring tonight, God spoke straight to my heart. I was just telling Danny last night that I wasn't comfortable here, in a good way. It makes me uncomfortable to be because it's out of my comfort zone. It makes me not want to stay here forever, but I'm ok with staying as long as God needs us here for. I truly living here; there are just things I miss about other places of the country, and especially missing people in other places of the country. So we were discussing this last night and just trying to figure out where to go from here and what it all means. We didn't get very far. And I was ok being discontented. This world is not my home.
So I'm tutoring today. God speaks that my teaching degree isn't so much about being in a classroom with students as it is about being versatile. Our life is unstable and that's ok. I have a degree that can be used in many ways. I am to use my degree to teach in whatever setting is available and necessary for the given time. I am a teacher. That's a huge part of who God has made me to be. What I need to do is learn to use this gift in whatever capacity He opens up for me. It's not just about being in a classroom, as much as I enjoy that and am comfortable there, but about being willing. The funny part is Danny has been trying to tell me this for years, since we first started dating really, but it was never something I wanted to hear. Now, being where we are and just feeling uncomfortable, I was ready to hear it. So will I teach in a classroom again? I truly don't know and I'm ok with that. I'm continually learning to be done with whatever plans I thought about and trusting that God will always guide and direct my path to where He needs me in the timing He needs that to happen. My God is amazing!
