Thursday, December 31, 2009

Moving Forward

I've been thinking a lot about home as the holidays have been upon us. Home is a lot of different places these days. I've also been thinking about people and how much I miss the ones I love. I know I've said this before. Along with these thoughts of missing people though I've also been missing teaching. I've come to realize that all these things I'm missing are things that have made my life very comfortable in the past. I miss the things that have made life easy. Not that I didn't needed to rely on the Lord during these seasons of being surrounded by loved ones and a job that I was enjoying, but I was comfortable. We were both comfortable. Life was easy, and we really didn't know how easy it was.

I was listening to a song the other day called "Moving Forward" by Ricardo Sanchez. As comfortable as I was, I am the opposite here. I am currently in a job that I'm really excited about, but it's not teaching. Teaching brought a lot of stability that I wasn't aware of (probably part of the reason I wanted to do and knew I was supposed to be doing it) until I got out of it. This song reminded me though that it's not about staying where I'm at or looking back but continuing to move forward. If I stay in the same place how will I continue to grow? If I don't let go how will I experience what new things He has for me/us here? I won't. It's a struggle as I definitely don't want to leave behind what He has done in the past and the people and relationships He's built, but I have to remember to keep moving forward and push ahead to what He has in store next. It's a journey and as much as I loved the last destination and all that it held, it's time to move forward.

Happy New Year friends. Move into 2010 with great expectations of all that He's going to do in the coming months.

Monday, December 21, 2009

Blessed

So blessed. Here's the bullet list.

  • Danny got a job today that will entail a regular paycheck. He's actually taking over my "old" job. We're excited about the chance to have multiple paychecks on a regular basis again. He'll also still be able to do work on the side.
  • Danny's been working on a government project that involves After Effects. Think special effects that make things look pretty. We're so thankful for Joff for bringing this opportunity along.
  • I have a new job working with kids with autism. It's challenging; enough that I'm literally learning every single day on the job. It's super hard and trying emotionally. Therefore I'm learning to rely more and more on the One that keeps my emotions straight. The amazing part is that I love what I do and can't wait to go full time. I know it's going to be stressful and difficult, but these kids are great.
  • We have a church we really enjoy where we're finding and building relationships that we really enjoy. We're blessed to be in a Bible teaching church.
  • We have been paying bills in LA for the last 5 months almost. We've lived here almost 6 months. I'm pretty amazed by this on a regular basis. I truly have no idea how it works. When I look at our money through my eyes it doesn't work. When I trust the Father, it always does. He's amazing.
  • Family and friends - even though they're spread across the country. We both had a hard Sunday in church, singing carols and missing family like nothing else. This is the first Christmas EVER that either of us has been away from family completely. It feels so much different this year knowing we're not going to be seeing the people we love so much. It doesn't feel like Christmas. We're working on just relaxing and enjoying the little time off. So many changes this year.
So those are the big ones. I'm thankful for our apartment, for our roommates, and for my husband. Life amazes me often here. I'm often reminded of my great need for Him and reminded that we wouldn't be here without Him. He's the reason for all that we are and all that we're doing. I'm blessed to be reminded of this daily. I'm blessed to know that I'm human, not perfect, but that I can rely on the Perfect One to get me through every single day. He will not fail me nor forsake.

May you be blessed and enjoy all that the holidays bring.