I realized that I have included you on this journey after things have happened, but I have not let you in on what's to come. This Wednesday, at 4pm, we see the ultrasound specialist. This will be our first ultrasound since getting the initial diagnosis about everything going on with Jonathan, our second visit with this Dr specifically.
We saw the nurse midwife 2 weeks ago and heard his heartbeat. Even though we went in expecting to hear it, there was definitely doubt and fear that clouded our thoughts and minds as we awaited that day. Hearing his heartbeat was a welcome breath of fresh air.
Knowing the emotions that came with that week, we are feeling them intensified this week. We have been praying and believing for healing, for it to happen within the womb. As I was processing today, I realized that as much as I'm hoping for great things though, I can't go in with any expectations. The only thing I can hold onto is the truth that who God is will not change based on the outcome of this ultrasound.
We are hoping to see a difference, hoping to see the cleft lip closing, the hole in the heart closing, and the intestines back inside the stomach where they belong. It would be amazing to see his hands open and close. I'm also simply hoping for better pictures of him to share. There are the fears that everything will be just as we left it over a month ago.
This is a week of fighting for truth, fighting through emotions and fears, fighting for faith and hope, no matter what we see with our physical eyes. We need your help. Will you pray with us?
1. Strength to cast our cares on The Lord because He cares for us
2. Strength to fix our minds on what is good, holy, just, pure, and excellent and allow His peace to comfort us
3. Strength to walk by faith and not by sight
4. Strength to worship The Lord no matter what
I hope to update again this weekend.
I WILL pray with you guys!!
ReplyDeleteThanks Bobo!
Delete"We are hoping to see a difference, hoping to see the cleft lip closing, the hole in the heart closing, and the intestines back inside the stomach where they belong."
ReplyDeleteAs I read these words I just thought,"This seems so possible." I'll be praying in faith that these little miracles happen while Jonathan is still being formed and molded in the hands of The Potter.
I will also pray for peace to your and Danny's souls, and that your attitudes will be a testimony to that medical community as you live in the truth of "...who God is will not change based on the outcome of this ultrasound."
Much love.
I love these words: This seems so possible. Thank you for your faith, for believing with us, and for your support. Distance means nothing. <3
DeleteI am friends with Cindy. I do not know you, but your transparency is beautiful. Thank you for allowing us a peak into your story. I cannot imagine and yet I know the journey of the "fight of our faith." Circumstances may be different, but the goal is the same....that we may be conformed into His beautiful image. I see this in you. I will pray! Continue in your "teachable and yielded" posture, for this will reap great dividends. Leaning into the bosom of our Father who will provide what you need with each step. Your love for your baby, regardless of the outcome, is also beautiful. A beautiful portrayal of how our heavenly father gazes upon us. Thank you for your "fight of faith." This encourages all of us and models an honest struggle between the heartaches of this life and the desire to trust a faithful and good God. God bless both of you and that precious life within your womb.
ReplyDeleteThank you for these words. It is my constant prayer that the Lord be glorified in the midst of this situation. Whether we're having a hard day of fighting, or a beautiful day of resting, that is the ultimate goal. We are so thankful for your prayers, for joining in the battle with strangers :) May His blessings abound in your life as well.
DeleteWe are praying and trusting with you! xoxo
ReplyDelete~Mike & Jennifer